i do wish i was better at video games tho. i cannot for the life of me get past the mid chp2 birdly fight..... i am not built for quick response times at all lol hes been watching me play & getting my ass handed to me by this bird nerd is a bit embarrassing (ーー;

that kind of emotion that im not used to handling where i dont feel especially deserving of kindness or affection & feel guilty when ppl are nice to me. i would rather be unhappy then see the people i care for go hungry, but he would rather skip meals just to see me smile. idk how to process that...