Like if I actually was jealous don’t you think I’d be trying harder to fuck things up? Idk. Shits weird y’all. You know your own feelings best and that’s all I can say on that.

I literally feel like a helpless fucking baby and I hate it. I just want my body to fucking cooperate for like two fucking seconds! Is that too much to ask for?!?!!?!!

I am so happy to be feeling so much better. I still have my days but at least now I can have my days and have them fully and just be supported instead of trying to shove it all down. It was so unhealthy doing that.