my mom and my brother are happy to see me be independent and try new things but my dad sees me trying to do something by myself like doing the fucking laundry he has a goddamn aneurysm . which is why i am more annoyed than disappointed I made him angry

i hate using that word but I kinda feel like that rn . i have literally communicated clearly to the email what is getting u mixed up!!!! pls fucking explain so that I can rectify it !!! i hate everything

like girl i was just reassuring another worker tht it's fine if i wasn't able to work bc u literally gave me dates where i can work on wednesday and i can work longer than i need to bc i would rather not waste my time coming to work only to leave in like 3 hours

that's so fucking dumb . now I have schedule conflicts this week which is Great and Awesome Wooooo

my mom: i married at 34 and im sad

me: oh :(

im kinda beating myself up already like idk this is only my second internship and my first one kinda sucked so this feels like technically my first internship so i feel like im fucking up for not reading a email correctly and whatnot 😭😭

not to say there aren't moments of me making art where im happy to make it ! there's plenty of art where i have been happy to make it . but sometimes i kinda just see my art and go like it's good enough rather which . idk its kinda stagnating