which is why i probably struggle to conform to public spaces, where i'm expected to act the same as everyone else. i'm not an attention seeker, far from it, but this compulsive desire to be different is strong and if i ignore it i WILL go insane

...IS my safe space. the excitement of eating something strange, buying something people don't normally choose, etc. it gives me comfort being different. sure i have anchors to fall back to like safe foods and such but without the ability to be different i feel really uncomfortable...

but as time goes on i get more concernes over what i sound like. is it feminine enough? is it ever feminine enough? will it ever be feminine enough? on good days i think i sound okay, but on days like these are where i start to question everything and fear of getting clocked

just kinda hard motivating myself to use this app bc twitter slop is so fun to see. bsky is too sterile and serious and nice

hello skarizzler

indonesia, went there for college

i lived there for 5 years and if anything it gets more fun over time