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bsky.senil.me
Senil 🍹
@bsky.senil.me
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I'm here, I'm queer, and I'm not backing down 💚 27. In a better known part of the PNW. Controls engineer & streamer.

PFP: @owliethe.bsky.social
Banner: @bigcatattackk.bsky.social

website: https://senil.me
blog: https://blog.senil.me

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blegh. drained and tired and exhausted, 2am but im not tired enough to sleep.

body aches, brain aches, emotions ache... everything aches right now.
Senil getting hit by a compact two-door truck at a crosswalk, while bystanders watch, gasp, or try to look away.
November 11, 2025 at 10:27 AM
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blegh. i just. really want to curl up and cry in someone's arms right now. this is all too much. i know that things will eventually hopefully be okay but it's so hard to believe that right now.

like. how could i? with everything fucking going on with me and the systems immediately around me.

ugh.
Senil curled up in a ball, knees to his chest, crying.
November 5, 2025 at 8:14 AM
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brain is running at a mile a minute right now and I can't slow it down :(

weh
Senil curled up in a ball, knees to his chest, crying.
November 2, 2025 at 9:45 AM
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CW: mental health (neutral but still bad i guess)

:senil_sad:
ugh. 3:45 am but i can't sleep. brain won't quiet down. stressed by the everything. feeling lonely. bored because there isn't enough going on in my day but doing things costs money here so i can't do much. constantly reliant on others to afford shit. im just. overwhelmed. drained. exhausted. i want to cry but i cannot. i want the last few months to have not happened the way they did but i cannot change that fact. the only thing i can do... is keep trying to find work elsewhere... and dig into potential legal actions i can take at this point... but that's all so much to deal with. i can't handle all of that... i just. almost want to give up. stop trying to fight this mess and just roll over and take it. accept that im going to be fired and unemployed and stressed for who knows how long because the job market is fucked. im so tired. i just want to sleep and wake up and have things be normal ish again. but i know that won't happen. im just going to wake up and keep dealing with bullshit that's out of my control but directly impacts my quality of life?and ability to live. ability to get the care i need. the stability my mental health desperately craves. ugh. just... why... why me, why now, why like this, why all of this. why are those who should be helping me refusing to do so... im so exhausted. im going to wake up tomorrow and at least trudge along through the day. but i really wish i had the energy to do more than just exist. i think im going to try and cry myself to sleep, now.
October 20, 2025 at 10:52 AM
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like it is eating up every single thing it has available to it.
A screenshot of the resources a container is using in proxmox. It's using up almost 100% of the CPU, memory, and SWAP that it has access to.
October 12, 2025 at 9:26 PM
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May I offer a delicious Mai Tai in these trying times, or perhaps the Space Needle cocktail?

Or any other drink of your choice~
Senil sitting at a wood bar with a tropical drink to his right, body facing the viewer and arm resting on the bar, eyes looking off to his left. A beach, waves, and a leaning palm tree can be seen behind him.
October 11, 2025 at 10:35 PM
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smh can't believe you don't have cunty regirock.
Regirock with fake lashes on each of its "eyes", lipstick, and long nails on hands that were edited in. They're also carrying a bag with a Lillipup inside.
September 27, 2025 at 11:10 PM
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Senil lying face-down on the ground, with a low battery symbol above him.
August 27, 2025 at 8:57 AM
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pretty much.
anon: "😭 how do you win the I don't give a fuck war when it comes to shipping?" tumblr user beybuniki: "I'm 28."
August 25, 2025 at 9:41 PM
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no context, just. weh.
Senil curled up, knees to his chest, crying.
August 10, 2025 at 9:11 AM
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🥺👉👈
A beefy Senil with a large gut, his left hand on its side. Senil sitting at a wood bar with a tropical drink to his right, body facing the viewer and arm resting on the bar, eyes looking off to his left. A beach, waves, and a leaning palm tree can be seen behind him. A ref sheet for my synth, Senil! The outside "skin" is a darker green, with dark gray inside limbs and stomach with blue highlights. Four expressions feature me happy, in love with heart eyes, surprised, and angry.
July 28, 2025 at 3:17 AM
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CW: (probably) sexual assault, associated trauma.

blegh. it's at least not keeping me up (restless legs have that covered) but it's still unpleasant.
blegh. brain's going back to thinking about the time where I may or may not have been sexually assaulted (depends on how you view things legally) and definitely got trauma from it. i hate that I don't remember what I said during then. that I don't remember if I tried to say no, or if I was coerced under a false pretense and was lied to, or what else... i really wish i knew a little bit more about that night. i know the guy is an asshole and may have lied to me that night (given that a few nights later he "tested" me by saying he takes hard drugs to gauge my response, which you DO NOT DO, EVER) but. idk. it's just confusing and a mess. i wish i had an answer. i wish i had a better idea as to what was going on that night. i know it's fucked me up sexually (not in a "that's why I'm asexual or w/e" way), but... idk. it's just a fucking mess.
July 19, 2025 at 9:20 AM
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Not quite before the 20th century but I'd say whoever wrote this is close enough and is also exactly what I need to see.
A post with an image. The post reads "Do you ever see something written by a historical figure and just know in your heart that they would have been such a great poster?" The image reads "September 5 1990: Perhaps arsenic will give me beautiful skin. September 1900: hospital."
July 12, 2025 at 5:08 AM
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My old feet finally decided to break, and my usual mechanic who acts as my doctor only had these on hand while they fix my original set up. I didn't know they'd change my body and blueprint, too! Not like I'm complaining too much~

(thanks @lancederg.bsky.social!)

#FurryArt #SynthSpecies
A very shiny Senil with a huge belly sticking in front of him. His feet are now plantigrade with large claws sticking out, his gut pushing his legs to the side. He's groping his chest, with a worried expression on his visor.
July 10, 2025 at 6:09 AM
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More than enough for you, I hope.
A super muscular Senil with meaty pecs flexing his left arm, forming a sizeable peak.
June 22, 2025 at 1:49 AM
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My fiance and I don't have pets of our own (yet) but my parents have two wire fox terriers, and the younger one (Sully) apparently likes sprinklers a little bit.
June 14, 2025 at 10:59 PM
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Hey you. Yeah, you. Go commission this guy, he does great muscle art and I've loved every piece I've gotten from him.

Valiance wasn't always this massive, you know. @draknoirdark.bsky.social is the one who did this and made me go "Valiance is officially this scale now."

Go. Commission.

#FurryArt
A macro view of my wolf fursona, Valiance, with massive muscles. He's floating in interstellar space, a black hole above his left palm, a nearby galaxy behind his left shoulder. Nebula clouds swirl behind him.
June 2, 2025 at 2:13 AM
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A teaser line from my upcoming blog post re: cons getting too big for their britches and me rambling way too long about something that really only takes three paragraphs:
A screenshot of an upcoming blog post, reading "I’m going to be real, I’m not entirely sure what I mean by that, but hopefully you know what I mean by that. If you don’t, then we’re both lost."
May 19, 2025 at 6:28 AM
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The new "Not What I'm Called" meme going around. A picture of Senil leaning on the Hydra splatling from Splatoon in the background, with someone pointing at him and two people in the corner. Senil: "hey guys" A person pointing at Senil: "SENILE" Senil: "NOT WHAT I'M CALLED"
May 14, 2025 at 5:05 AM
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Well now you've done it... Not like I'm complaining~ >///<
A massively muscular macro Senil, leaning on mountains, the bottom of his pecs barely below the mountaintops.
April 17, 2025 at 6:11 PM
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*bwomph* Now that's what I like to see~
A massively muscular Senil flexing his left arm.
April 17, 2025 at 5:48 PM
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finally got to see the African Painted Dogs at my local zoo 💚 they are such guys. 100% "yeah that's a dog but also not really."

anyways i think I'm gonna have a third fursona now xD a painted dog who'll represent the musician parts of my life.
An African Painted Dog inspecting some hay in a bucket at a zoo.
April 7, 2025 at 8:19 AM
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"Alright, who hooked me up to a transmission line? Well... it's not like I'm complaining, I have a great view from here! Keep me hooked up!"

Thanks to @logicalguardian.bsky.social for this lovely YCH! I don't fuck with macro Sen much but I do love when I do.
A massively muscular macro Senil, leaning on mountains, the bottom of his pecs barely below the mountaintops.
March 27, 2025 at 5:01 AM
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if you don't know muffy sis the carbs, well you do now:
Tumblr user OutOfContextArthur: "muffy's lunch consiste of three sandwiches and a bread roll." There's a still frame from Arthur, where Arthur, Muffy, and others are having lunch. Tumblr user jackanthfern: "SCREAMING Muffy sis............ the carbs."
February 26, 2025 at 7:22 PM
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@bexy1.bsky.social do you still judge me heavily for this to this day.
February 24, 2025 at 12:09 AM