Ava
@brokenavaxus.bsky.social
A personal vent account for @mravaxus.bsky.social | Gonna wait for the ability to private your account to use this properly, so till then, I'll try not to use this as often as I currently do
Managed to break myself free from gacha hell. I didn't manage to spend too much money (probably close to $50 overall throughout the year), but I wasn't fond of the idea being able to spend more money because of the meta shifting all the time.
A small, but good step in the right direction.
A small, but good step in the right direction.
January 2, 2026 at 5:11 AM
Managed to break myself free from gacha hell. I didn't manage to spend too much money (probably close to $50 overall throughout the year), but I wasn't fond of the idea being able to spend more money because of the meta shifting all the time.
A small, but good step in the right direction.
A small, but good step in the right direction.
I barely just woke up and I'm already in tears, holy shit dude how much more miserable can I ever be in life.
December 25, 2025 at 2:49 PM
I barely just woke up and I'm already in tears, holy shit dude how much more miserable can I ever be in life.
It makes me jealous that my friends get along very well with each other, but when it comes to my interactions with those same friends, they're just passable, as if I'm not doing anything to try and make things feel lively.
Man
Man
December 11, 2025 at 2:48 AM
It makes me jealous that my friends get along very well with each other, but when it comes to my interactions with those same friends, they're just passable, as if I'm not doing anything to try and make things feel lively.
Man
Man
Every fucking time that I speak, I sound like a complete moron who didn't bother to think twice about what he was about to say.
Goddamn, why in the actual hell am I allowed to have a brain if it lacks the intelligence to make comprehensible sentences?
Goddamn, why in the actual hell am I allowed to have a brain if it lacks the intelligence to make comprehensible sentences?
December 9, 2025 at 12:27 AM
Every fucking time that I speak, I sound like a complete moron who didn't bother to think twice about what he was about to say.
Goddamn, why in the actual hell am I allowed to have a brain if it lacks the intelligence to make comprehensible sentences?
Goddamn, why in the actual hell am I allowed to have a brain if it lacks the intelligence to make comprehensible sentences?
I really just proved my point by embarrassing myself in front of someone I know. Dude wanted to roleplay, asked him who he would use, then I started thinking who would work best.
3 hours, a nap, and a burnout later, I still end up not making my mind and end up not being able to RP. Kill me lmao
3 hours, a nap, and a burnout later, I still end up not making my mind and end up not being able to RP. Kill me lmao
This thought came out of nowhere while I was jamming to A Stranger I Remain, but it still does bother me a lot that I lack the skills to make a semi-decent story and be able to roleplay with others competently while I watch others have the most fun moments in their lives.
Bleh.
Bleh.
November 22, 2025 at 11:23 PM
I really just proved my point by embarrassing myself in front of someone I know. Dude wanted to roleplay, asked him who he would use, then I started thinking who would work best.
3 hours, a nap, and a burnout later, I still end up not making my mind and end up not being able to RP. Kill me lmao
3 hours, a nap, and a burnout later, I still end up not making my mind and end up not being able to RP. Kill me lmao
This thought came out of nowhere while I was jamming to A Stranger I Remain, but it still does bother me a lot that I lack the skills to make a semi-decent story and be able to roleplay with others competently while I watch others have the most fun moments in their lives.
Bleh.
Bleh.
November 19, 2025 at 6:04 AM
This thought came out of nowhere while I was jamming to A Stranger I Remain, but it still does bother me a lot that I lack the skills to make a semi-decent story and be able to roleplay with others competently while I watch others have the most fun moments in their lives.
Bleh.
Bleh.
This incident has actually made me despise the idea of rape so fucking much in fictional media, or any sort of sexual harassment. Before, I was at least able to tolerate it as long it was done in a proper and respectful manner. Now I just hate it, regardless of how it is done or what the intent is.
Family members can choose to touch someone inappropriately by rubbing their ass for a minute and a half straight and you'll still be bitched at by your own family for being a miserable piece of shit around people who want to "make me happy" while also threatening to cut me off from mobile data. Lmao
November 14, 2025 at 1:42 AM
This incident has actually made me despise the idea of rape so fucking much in fictional media, or any sort of sexual harassment. Before, I was at least able to tolerate it as long it was done in a proper and respectful manner. Now I just hate it, regardless of how it is done or what the intent is.
Every minute of the hour, I question my own existence.
November 2, 2025 at 4:41 PM
Every minute of the hour, I question my own existence.
Always stay humble myself, I ain't gonna be anywhere close to motherfuckers who can actually roleplay, because I know damn well I'm just not capable of that. Not even a case of me being negative, I know myself well enough that I'm too stupid of a motherfucker to try and do a proper roleplay. Hahaha
October 23, 2025 at 3:36 AM
Always stay humble myself, I ain't gonna be anywhere close to motherfuckers who can actually roleplay, because I know damn well I'm just not capable of that. Not even a case of me being negative, I know myself well enough that I'm too stupid of a motherfucker to try and do a proper roleplay. Hahaha
Family members can choose to touch someone inappropriately by rubbing their ass for a minute and a half straight and you'll still be bitched at by your own family for being a miserable piece of shit around people who want to "make me happy" while also threatening to cut me off from mobile data. Lmao
October 5, 2025 at 11:31 PM
Family members can choose to touch someone inappropriately by rubbing their ass for a minute and a half straight and you'll still be bitched at by your own family for being a miserable piece of shit around people who want to "make me happy" while also threatening to cut me off from mobile data. Lmao
Follow up to this post.
Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 might be the only game that I would call a masterpiece, it's legitimately one of the best things I've ever laid my eyes on. I may love stuff like Pokemon, SMT, and Etrian Odyssey, but this game speaks to me in a way that's impossible to describe.
Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 might be the only game that I would call a masterpiece, it's legitimately one of the best things I've ever laid my eyes on. I may love stuff like Pokemon, SMT, and Etrian Odyssey, but this game speaks to me in a way that's impossible to describe.
It feels so good to actually cry for once. I don't remember when was the last time I cried, but it's been a long while now, that's for sure. Damn you video games with themes of death, grieving, and acceptance, you never fail to remind me of my fear of death and wanting everything to go on forever.
September 23, 2025 at 8:32 PM
Follow up to this post.
Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 might be the only game that I would call a masterpiece, it's legitimately one of the best things I've ever laid my eyes on. I may love stuff like Pokemon, SMT, and Etrian Odyssey, but this game speaks to me in a way that's impossible to describe.
Clair Obscur: Expedition 33 might be the only game that I would call a masterpiece, it's legitimately one of the best things I've ever laid my eyes on. I may love stuff like Pokemon, SMT, and Etrian Odyssey, but this game speaks to me in a way that's impossible to describe.
It feels so good to actually cry for once. I don't remember when was the last time I cried, but it's been a long while now, that's for sure. Damn you video games with themes of death, grieving, and acceptance, you never fail to remind me of my fear of death and wanting everything to go on forever.
September 16, 2025 at 6:51 AM
It feels so good to actually cry for once. I don't remember when was the last time I cried, but it's been a long while now, that's for sure. Damn you video games with themes of death, grieving, and acceptance, you never fail to remind me of my fear of death and wanting everything to go on forever.
My inability to keep my mouth shut and my shitty behavior toward people is the reason why people don't seek much interest in me or don't want to do much around me.
Because yes, it's totally worth it for me to come off as an asshole by trying to ruin someone's fun with making character concepts.
Because yes, it's totally worth it for me to come off as an asshole by trying to ruin someone's fun with making character concepts.
September 7, 2025 at 6:33 AM
My inability to keep my mouth shut and my shitty behavior toward people is the reason why people don't seek much interest in me or don't want to do much around me.
Because yes, it's totally worth it for me to come off as an asshole by trying to ruin someone's fun with making character concepts.
Because yes, it's totally worth it for me to come off as an asshole by trying to ruin someone's fun with making character concepts.
Never trust myself to make food. Can't make burritos at all despite my efforts, so I prefer to throw all my progress away because it's unsalvageable in my eyes. Nothing can be done to make it work, so I don't wanna waste my time on it.
Just gonna stick to frozen food from now on.
Just gonna stick to frozen food from now on.
August 30, 2025 at 5:00 PM
Never trust myself to make food. Can't make burritos at all despite my efforts, so I prefer to throw all my progress away because it's unsalvageable in my eyes. Nothing can be done to make it work, so I don't wanna waste my time on it.
Just gonna stick to frozen food from now on.
Just gonna stick to frozen food from now on.
Note to self: Do not gamble at all in a mobile game. I will lose and not get the anniversary character!!!!!
Don't trust me with money, I will more than likely do dumb shit with it instead of saving it properly.
Don't trust me with money, I will more than likely do dumb shit with it instead of saving it properly.
August 28, 2025 at 6:00 PM
Note to self: Do not gamble at all in a mobile game. I will lose and not get the anniversary character!!!!!
Don't trust me with money, I will more than likely do dumb shit with it instead of saving it properly.
Don't trust me with money, I will more than likely do dumb shit with it instead of saving it properly.
Never trust me with baking at all. I will find a way to fuck it all up and I will get so upset about it that I end up throwing all my progress away and forget about baking, losing all the confidence I was building up throughout the last couple of months.
That's the life of this fucker right here.
That's the life of this fucker right here.
August 23, 2025 at 11:12 PM
Never trust me with baking at all. I will find a way to fuck it all up and I will get so upset about it that I end up throwing all my progress away and forget about baking, losing all the confidence I was building up throughout the last couple of months.
That's the life of this fucker right here.
That's the life of this fucker right here.
Note to self: Don't bother correcting anyone's mistakes, regardless of how minor they are. They will NOT like it at all.
August 14, 2025 at 1:04 AM
Note to self: Don't bother correcting anyone's mistakes, regardless of how minor they are. They will NOT like it at all.
I am not ready for the future of the internet with how things have been going. I would rather die than being forced to use any sort of identification to get access to any website.
At this point, I just gotta hope everything backfires for the government and any companies willing to do such a thing.
At this point, I just gotta hope everything backfires for the government and any companies willing to do such a thing.
August 1, 2025 at 3:56 AM
I am not ready for the future of the internet with how things have been going. I would rather die than being forced to use any sort of identification to get access to any website.
At this point, I just gotta hope everything backfires for the government and any companies willing to do such a thing.
At this point, I just gotta hope everything backfires for the government and any companies willing to do such a thing.
Hahaha whoops, I've been found out to be having too much fun at a convention, everything must go wrong!!!!!!!
Seriously, I'm just sick and tired of everything going wrong when I'm beginning to actually have fun. Not to say that it was boring, I really liked my first convention.
Seriously, I'm just sick and tired of everything going wrong when I'm beginning to actually have fun. Not to say that it was boring, I really liked my first convention.
July 19, 2025 at 9:14 PM
Hahaha whoops, I've been found out to be having too much fun at a convention, everything must go wrong!!!!!!!
Seriously, I'm just sick and tired of everything going wrong when I'm beginning to actually have fun. Not to say that it was boring, I really liked my first convention.
Seriously, I'm just sick and tired of everything going wrong when I'm beginning to actually have fun. Not to say that it was boring, I really liked my first convention.
I think I've just accepted the fact that until I die, I'll always be useless as fuck to everyone I know. Serving barely any purpose in life while trying to indulge in the remaining humanity I have left before I go mental. And even when I do indulge in what I wanna do, I end up feeling ashamed.
July 15, 2025 at 7:28 PM
I think I've just accepted the fact that until I die, I'll always be useless as fuck to everyone I know. Serving barely any purpose in life while trying to indulge in the remaining humanity I have left before I go mental. And even when I do indulge in what I wanna do, I end up feeling ashamed.
I always hate giving suggestions to people I know, it almost always ends out horribly for me. And if it doesn't, it doesn't feel like I did a good job on giving them something worthwhile.
Pretty much the reason why I let others decide on what to do. Others just do a better job with decisions
Pretty much the reason why I let others decide on what to do. Others just do a better job with decisions
July 5, 2025 at 9:42 PM
I always hate giving suggestions to people I know, it almost always ends out horribly for me. And if it doesn't, it doesn't feel like I did a good job on giving them something worthwhile.
Pretty much the reason why I let others decide on what to do. Others just do a better job with decisions
Pretty much the reason why I let others decide on what to do. Others just do a better job with decisions
Hahahahahahaha fuck 4th of July. I hope the US gets overthrown by the majority of people who never wanted any of this bullshit.
July 4, 2025 at 3:45 PM
Hahahahahahaha fuck 4th of July. I hope the US gets overthrown by the majority of people who never wanted any of this bullshit.
Been seeing a lot of posts lately regarding character design and story lore to the point that now I doubt my ability to make proper character designs and making them a well design character (in terms of personality and lore). It annoys me how often I fumble the bag in all of those aspects.
June 24, 2025 at 7:50 PM
Been seeing a lot of posts lately regarding character design and story lore to the point that now I doubt my ability to make proper character designs and making them a well design character (in terms of personality and lore). It annoys me how often I fumble the bag in all of those aspects.
Extremely minor rant, but holy shit even though I enjoy playing 100% Orange Juice (100+ hours at this point), grinding levels for all the roles to level 30 is beyond tedious. Doesn't really help that using any of the speed up options gives you an XP penalty for the roles, so leveling up takes ages.
June 17, 2025 at 8:03 PM
Extremely minor rant, but holy shit even though I enjoy playing 100% Orange Juice (100+ hours at this point), grinding levels for all the roles to level 30 is beyond tedious. Doesn't really help that using any of the speed up options gives you an XP penalty for the roles, so leveling up takes ages.
I'm afraid of playing Deltarune again. I don't feeling like suffering through the superbosses and making sure I'm doing everything perfectly to get all the content I can on the pacifist route, but I don't wanna miss out on anything by not doing shit. I wanna experience peak.
Fuck.
Fuck.
June 7, 2025 at 7:47 PM
I'm afraid of playing Deltarune again. I don't feeling like suffering through the superbosses and making sure I'm doing everything perfectly to get all the content I can on the pacifist route, but I don't wanna miss out on anything by not doing shit. I wanna experience peak.
Fuck.
Fuck.