Still baffles me when at work customers tell their kids to "give your stuff to the lady(me)". So i guess i look sort of female. But i still... hate myself for looking wrong.

They are in love and eloped 💕

Very true

Other adults can handle so much more shit than ive had to deal with, so I feel weak. I just need to try harder.

Ive only got myself

Another positive, when babies come through my line, make eye contact with me, and dont cry :)

I want to fix my life, I just dont know how.

30s is when its meant to get better apparently, but im so far behind still... so fucking far behind.

And despite my efforts at presenting a normal front, a coworker picked up on something wrong with my mood, so i cant even maintain normalcy to at least keep people around me comfortable... im terrible.

All my local peers are at least living with someone, while im here talking to spiders on my wall and posting that on social media trying to twist it into something funnier than it is just plain pathetic.

Im working on fixing the driving thing, but it feels like too little too late. Theres still so much that ive failed to do. Ill keep trying, but i feel hopeless right now.

Im starting to hate living alone, but thats whats staring me in the face for the next rest of my life hahahahahaha

At best I can kind of make people laugh sometimes? I can help customers at work? But thats all i am. I hate it.

Yeah I've started doing that to try to save some money, it just struck me yesterday when I looked at the spice sachet how its meant to serve at least 4 and I wish I could be sitting down to eat it with other people :')