God i just wish that someday i'll be far away from any of them in a more stable environment where I can support myself, that I don't have to live under their kindness, and they don't have anything to do with me and I with them

I'm so tired. Lol my younger brother is never going to understand me at all and i'm so tired trying to assimilate myself into his elitist girlfriend. I don't fucking care about any of you and if I have the means and money to get away from here, I will

It's not even a matter of "fandom was fun and good before" because I genuinely think fandom has never been good. At all. To me, at least. I was just too hung up in it to discern it so