yeah i was realizing that i don’t have very many genuine maintained friendships and stopped reaching out when it began to feel very one sided.

i’m okay, just lonely and miss friendships that i guess i was the only one trying to maintain. thanks for asking.

they live up north and seem to have a wonderful life together and while we don’t really talk to each other, he will still like photos i post. and it makes me wonder if he thinks about that time too.

i don’t know if what i feel when i think about that and check on his socials occasionally if it is regret, and that i somehow cursed myself to sad situationships and he has a life that i want. that maybe we could have had.