ooooooo boy it sure does feel like i selfishly abandoned my students right now. I'm signing up for various actions and donating $$ to siembra and will probably drive around on patrol tomorrow but ouuuugh i'm still feeling helpless and cut the fuck up thinking about how scared they all are right now

my IG posting about That One Guy caused a family schism 🤪. I wanted to talk about hellworld in therapy today but then I spent most of it crying because i am sad about how my cousin (who was my best friend for all my childhood) doesn't love me anymore because i am a literal demon to her now I guess

Real fuckin exhausting and demoralizing day in the parent-of-kid-with-arfid mines. I finally got her to eat cheese melted on chips but I'm so frustrated with the concept of food after today that I don't even want to think about feeding myself.

PMDD sucks, old news, but it's weird how being in the "good" week makes me feel almost manic. Like Oh shit i have energy, i should start a project, i should sign up for a thing, i should make use of this before it goes away!!! And then it does go away and I'm regretful bc i can't continue the energy

The post-chantal boil water notice finally got lifted so i was hoping to clean and do laundry and get ready for our road trip tomorrow, but instead i got rear ended/pushed into the car in front of me/hit-and-run'd and i just wanna be flat in my bed and cry. (Car is fine)

tried to get my meds refilled last week before I went out of town, but my prescription officially ran out on the 4th and so they couldn't refill it cuz it was technically not refillable yet. And I was like well ... I'll just survive until Monday, I have a couple extras to get me through the weekend

Drank caffeine tonight and I'm still awake. I'm having kind of a great time just fucking around doing nothing online, laying in bed all by myself? like have y'all heard of this??? I think i used to do this all the time before i was a parent. Like not just at night but whenever after work.

I went to an in-person work thing yesterday and it was fun actually. Also a coworker did a presentation on like DBT therapy techniques and surviving work, and then ended with a final slide with links to like 6 pro-immigrant/anti-ice orgs for an example of redirecting anxiety into something concrete

I made this so I could holler and yell about mundane shit and the like, thanks