i hope i dont regret this

im not responsible for peoples feelings and emotional wellbeing i chant

especially when youve been trying

ominous posting but not elaborating while bsky doesnt do private accs bc im paranoid

fr id feel so bad for skipping all the time when other people from farther away would still go to class but it was so tiring

im probably just asexuaI to a degree lmaooo

anyway im very glad we can (barely 💀) afford a room here for now bc i'd just go insane otherwise and skip class like crazy like i did in lisbon. i already barely have time for anything and im living 10 mins away

i rmb i lowkey had a mental breakdown that day and almost applied to my uni in lisbon again for my masters bc at the time having to travel everyday was one of my main issues and if i was gonna be miserable itmight as well be there (i think i thought here was farther away too? its just like 5min more

i felt like a spoiled kid throwing a tantrum when i brought up studying here ~2yrs ago to my mom and she talked abt me taking the train everyday instead of trying 2 find a place and i just went no. i refuse im not doing that but it was so exhausting idc if other people have it worse it still sucked