The depth of how much you know someone and how distant you are from them depends on how much quality time you've spent with them.
If you've known someone for a long time but they still feel like a stranger, chances are you both never got to spend time together to develop the friendship.

sometimes it's a matter of whether both parties are actually actively interested in spending time to develop the relationship.
If you or another person is not interested in being anything more than shallow acquaintances, there's not a whole lot that you can do tbh.

Ive been spending way too long sucking my dick in the mirror

cat behaviour, but I do it too