I really do mourn the fact that my dad didn't get to meet my partners family. They would get along perfectly, I know it for a fact. I miss my dad a lot, but I don't need to get hung up on that rn.

Just wanted to give an update/insight or something.

So I enjoy it, especially when my partners dad is smiling and laughing instead of upset. I'm growing to understand that he's kinda just loud no matter what, though.

So I'm trying to grow as a person. I don't want to be so anxious and lazy and impersonable. Idk... it's a lot to think about, from such a random source.

I hardly ever go upstairs bc of the noise, but I do enjoy talking to bfs folks. I've always liked "back in my day" stories though.

My mum has always been more mild-mannered I guess, but she has definitely changed for the worse. Idk. I hate knowing how different people are from the glowing personalities they used to have. I feel like I'm slowly coming into myself and had regressed a bit bc of c0vid and other stuff.

Like sure menopause and stuff can be partially blamed, but that's not all. Certainly mum in law has a million reasons to be paranoid and overly cautious with the kids, with how insane the daughter is and legal stuff. I get it. But the total personality change is wild.

But it was interesting to note that both he and my partner were talking about how much my bfs mum had changed. Gotten super anxious where she used to be a firecracker. Obviously I know age has some stuff to do with it, but... idk, I can't help but think of my own mum.

I probably am! I need to start taking them again. 😮‍💨 I did this morning thanks to this reply!

I could rant about what I'm thinking but I do all the time so whatever.

But whatever man this month I've gotta lock in fr. Includingggg on the fuckin weekends. I felt like I didn't even do bad this weekend comparatively but I guess I did! I'm contemplating doing liquids to get back on track. I hate this shit. I hate myself so much especially in other people's pics.

I've gotta get better at saving 🙃

But also annoying bc I'm still going to miss some stuff I didn't expect to be on sale and I really don't want to ask my bf for money again omfg

Its so annoying, I tried to keep myself on track for black fr1day deals and here I am still broke. But at least I have 1 week instead of 2 to deal with. 😮‍💨

Have eaten like shit but what else is new. I feel ready to finally get back in the zone though. Fingers crossed on that.

But I met some cool new people and got to chill with other friends and my partner so all is good.

Ew wtf
I don't understand why people are loving being openly awful like this now. What kind of grift are we allowing to go on like this??

I don't even know. I'm watching Karina talk on 1.25x speed and there's just soooo much. It's finally drama-filled and not boring, though.. I'll give it that. 💀

Lmao I think so 💀