there is no point to any of this. what the fuck am I doing wasting my life

my broken ass brain loves to tick back and forth between “nothing fucking matters” and “maybe today will be different?” and it’s all such a tease

I don’t want to do this anymore. I don’t want to go to work. I don’t want to be married. I don’t want to live in this country. I am living a waste of a life and I’m too much of a coward to fucking fix it

when your alt has more followers than your main, who are you really?