I used to be like that for years. I had a timeframe, I even rehearsed it. Trying to come up with the perfect plan was my obsession. Fortunately, things happened that changed my outlook in life. Nowadays I still catch myself resorting to those thoughts but I can reply with a "nah"

atp i'm going to start lying that i still live with my parents

a gente mal se conhece e ele conseguiu explicar minha obsessão com o Japão que eu mesma não entendia