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bkdklover.bsky.social
lover_ bkdk
@bkdklover.bsky.social
19, ||she/her||🇯🇲|| ||Multifandom enjoyer||

My current ship obsessions are || Zolu || Bkdk || FlowerFang || PunkFlower ||
After Miles writes how he's feeling, he just stares blankly at the paper that was once white and is now filled with words and mixed in with his tears.
October 11, 2023 at 1:47 AM
You just wish for the world to go away, to just disappear from existence, to wish you were never born because you were and will always be a burden to everyone around you.
October 11, 2023 at 1:47 AM
You want to reach out to a friend, but you don't want to burden them with your trouble because you know they can't do much to help you when you can't even help yourself or identify what's wrong with you.
October 11, 2023 at 1:47 AM
Suddenly, everything is irritating, and you wish to cry your eyes out.
October 11, 2023 at 1:46 AM
you just feel it; the type of night where you wish to harm yourself; the type of night you wish to starve yourself; the type of night you wish to punish yourself for feeling like this.
October 11, 2023 at 1:46 AM
Miles decided to just give up and just write whatever he was feeling and what made him feel so empty.

He starts off with It’s one of those nights again—the type of night where you wish to go away; you don’t know why you feel this way;
October 11, 2023 at 1:46 AM
“Why am I so useless? I can't even write about how I  feel, Miles muttered.
October 11, 2023 at 1:45 AM
“Ah, why is this so hard?” Miles muttered, then he crumbled up the paper and threw it on the floor, then he tried again, "Ummm..." While Miles is trying to figure out how to write down his feelings, he keeps tapping the pencil onto the paper, which kind of makes him even more irritated with himself.
October 11, 2023 at 1:45 AM
Miles is sitting by his table with tears streaming down his face from crying. As he tries to write down his feelings, the words aren't coming to him because he doesn't know how he feels, but he just wants to get over the frustration, so he starts with “dear diary."
October 11, 2023 at 1:45 AM
Because his boyfriend Miguel tries to fill his head with lies about liking his body, Miles knows sooner or later Miguel's going to admit how disgusting his body is and how repulsed he is by it.

So what does Miles do when he's struggling with these thoughts? He writes about them.
October 11, 2023 at 1:44 AM
doesn't like how fat he looks, hates his stretch marks that are all over his body; he hates them with a burning passion, and he especially hates to look at his body after having sex with his boyfriend.
October 11, 2023 at 1:44 AM
days where he wishes he didn't exist, days where he wishes to die, days where it's hard to look into the mirror because he doesn't like the way his body looks,
October 11, 2023 at 1:43 AM
He doesn't know what's wrong with him, and he refuses to see a therapist because he's sure nothing is wrong with him. Sure, there are days where he feels empty, days where he wishes to starve himself,
October 11, 2023 at 1:43 AM
In the end, Gojo was left alone, haunted by the memory of the love he had lost, forever tormented by the consequences of his actions.

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October 5, 2023 at 3:44 AM
Tears welled up in Gojo's eyes as he watched Yuuji disappear into the distance. He sank to his knees, the weight of his betrayal crushing him. He had destroyed the one thing that had brought light and happiness into his life, and now, all he had left were the empty echoes of his own regret.
October 5, 2023 at 3:44 AM
Gojo's throat tightened as he desperately called out, "Yuuji, please, let me explain!" But his words fell on deaf ears. Yuuji didn't turn back, didn't acknowledge him. It was as though he had vanished from Gojo's world in that very moment.
October 5, 2023 at 3:43 AM
Yuuji's steps were slow and deliberate, each one carrying him further away from the man who had betrayed him. The world around them seemed to blur, as if nature itself couldn't bear to witness the pain etched on Yuuji's face.
October 5, 2023 at 3:43 AM
It had been a reckless mistake on Gojo's part, an affair he thought he could keep hidden forever. But secrets have a way of unraveling, and the moment Yuuji had discovered the truth, Gojo knew he had lost everything.
October 5, 2023 at 3:43 AM
He watched Yuuji, the love of his life, walk away from him, his shoulders slumped in defeat.
October 5, 2023 at 3:43 AM
They look so good! 💖
October 5, 2023 at 3:41 AM