I may be a dif case and I know we both need to go to bed but it’s not that YOU make me nervous, but you discussing bridging the gap feels more accurate. Like, I just know for some things my responses are at a different level and I don’t want it to seem like I’m being ingenuine or not processing

Yeah honestly reading that set of values I definitely can agree with them like “this is how to be a good person” and even if the nuances of that list don’t always apply to nonsoldiers (like the descriptions beneath the headings) I completely agree the overall points are things everyone should follow

I wanna say also I hope I can help you feel a little less isolated even if I am coming from a civilian perspective bc at the end of the day you still deserve to feel accepted and loved and understood 🫶🏻 you SHOULDNT have to feel isolated atp

Like you’ve discussed today difficulty in how to talk about it with civilians or like in the past you’ve mentioned that your experiences feel isolating and like if on a totally different scale it can feel like that, I’d imagine it feels like a different reality in your case

It sounds like genuine hell what yall go through and I can only imagine the things that are even harder to put into words. Even thinking about the times I or others either feared for life or had to endure mental abuse or was physically and mentally at limit, I can see why it still feels so isolated

And if not trying to edit you might have to explain further which also probably can make the discussions tough on your end

I imagine it can honestly feel a little at times like talking to a child about “adult” things, like a lot of people hear about the training etc but when you talk about things theres probably a need to explain things at a level that might feel untrue to the experience because you’re trying to edit sm

Damn😂 I had a feeling though, you will be the first I go to if I get into warhammer though!🫶🏻

The common denominator is I think all are topics that we should be more open to because they’re l important but oftentimes discussing them can be seen as taboo and that just leads to bad shit on all sides

U can DM me if u want! Like I was insinuating I’m sure I sound like a dumbass😂 plus like tbh I’m used to the feeling in a way like with discussing suicide behaviors or prison for example like, obviously not the same thing but, it can be daunting to discuss at first without firsthand experience

I appreciate hearing it all, especially because it’s more of the full story🫶🏻 I can also definitely see why that would never leave you, I’m sure a lot of those memories around their deaths are awful so I love that today it came with a couple diamonds in the rough

This definitely sounds way less deep than I know it is but I don’t want to like make any assumptions about your experiences either. The shock and just horror you must have felt because that’s how anyone would respond and then being brought back and realizing you got to relive it I imagine is surreal

I can definitely see how you see it as a gift even though there’s some pain there and this morning sounds like it was really tough. I’m definitely sending you extra love today from down here where I’m at 🫶🏻

I hope it doesn’t come off rude to say I can only imagine what an insane experience that is. I also read your post about that and I think it’s so amazing you can see it so nuanced and find something u good u can take out of it despite the painful memory and experience coming back like that.

I bet some of those people (including myself sometimes probably) are a bit hesitant because we don’t want to respond offensively (and sometimes likes feel cold) but I never want you to feel like your experiences are being ignored! And I am being serious when I say I do enjoy when you share

Useless* lolol but im sure you knew what I meant!

We love when seemingly useful skills become clearly extremely useful when the time is right. This is a sick ass story Nikki! I’m always glad to read when you share about your experiences esp because I’m sure it can be (at best) bittersweet like the other commenter said

Unfortunately I barely know what that is😭😭😭 I’m typically the movies/tv/anime and science type of nerdy, wanted to get more into ttrpg’s (I’ve played the super low stakes ones where it’s still roleplay but not a continued campaign) but I like haven’t had a good entrance point

Oooo i fucking loove that hell yeah🙂‍↕️