It's good to know they're spending their time and effort on things like this cursed UI setting instead of fixing any actual bugs or whatever, thanks guys

There is no way I can debate or object to this without proving the point 😭

Awoooooo!!

Let's touch boss

There will be tangible things I need to do to actively address this, but already, I feel a weight lifted. A confusion and despair eased.

I feel foolish. I feel regretful for the impact of all this - to myself and those around me.
But it's time to mend. Regret alone isn't what repairs things.

It's been so simple all this time.

We don't just stop having these histories, this conditioning. I'm not above the body and brain I have lived in for this long. I carry this with me.

I used to accept it about myself. It used to be more hopeless, but this time it can be more optimistic.

I've been mentally running up against a wall trying to figure this out, trying to make it fit some other explanation - in the process, fighting wars with figments in my head.

It's all been because of this shame that I hadn't changed enough - that I was better and now I'm worse again.

The stupidly simple truth:

I am already a person predisposed to intense depression and anxiety. Now is the worst time to deny this about myself.

I simply wanted to have gotten "better" and for this to be gone. I've been agonising about what's so wrong, and failing to actually accept this.

I've only played like 4-5 hours but already there are many little bug friends I would kill/die for

Late night post because this makes me happy and I just feel like I gotta get out there lmao