that would be nice! Im trying to stay connected with a lot of people but that has been especially tough this year. Hoping that 2025 is more digestible for us!

there's no such thing as being left behind, but nearing the big 3 Oh has me wondering if im just pretending thats true 😵‍💫

this year, in hindsight, has been rougher than i expected but im feeling very dismissed by people around me lately and it's only exacerbating the whole "wow you dont really have anyone"

i dont think its something i want, but i do know i dont like to feel like this

i have other things to focus on but this could also just be the unmedicated depression talking

i have resigned myself to just being incompatible for connection beyond a good laugh or lay

half of it is me not reaching out bc i know ill just hear "oh man that sucks" and that may be self fulfilling prophecy, but also id rather just not say anything than get a half assed response

then why isnt he here in my room?

hear me out