BigDaddyRai
@bigdaddyrai96.bsky.social
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BigDaddyRai
@bigdaddyrai96.bsky.social
· May 14
My fat and ugly ass thought that I had a chance, fucking joke hahaha - in what world would it have made sense
I met u when u were at ur strongest and ur walls so high. While I’m ready to fall ur making sure ur fortress stands tall. Tho, I’ve done my best, I’ll keep working for it. But I’m finally ready to loose the fight. So until then..
October 29, 2025 at 4:01 AM
I met u when u were at ur strongest and ur walls so high. While I’m ready to fall ur making sure ur fortress stands tall. Tho, I’ve done my best, I’ll keep working for it. But I’m finally ready to loose the fight. So until then..
For now until then, I’ll keep showing up. One day ur heart will waver, and that’s when I’ll make sure I’m ready for her
I give all this until next year March. My heart has never been so full and In live, so lemme be present until u walk away
I give all this until next year March. My heart has never been so full and In live, so lemme be present until u walk away
October 15, 2025 at 5:00 PM
For now until then, I’ll keep showing up. One day ur heart will waver, and that’s when I’ll make sure I’m ready for her
I give all this until next year March. My heart has never been so full and In live, so lemme be present until u walk away
I give all this until next year March. My heart has never been so full and In live, so lemme be present until u walk away
My only issue is, to love without knowing if I’ll ever feel love from her fully. It’s already killing me, suppressing my emotions when it gets too strong. But the only saving grace is that at the very least, all this feelings have been made known to her and she’s regulating the doubts
October 15, 2025 at 4:56 PM
My only issue is, to love without knowing if I’ll ever feel love from her fully. It’s already killing me, suppressing my emotions when it gets too strong. But the only saving grace is that at the very least, all this feelings have been made known to her and she’s regulating the doubts
My only issue is, to love without knowing if I’ll ever feel love from her fully. It’s already killing me, suppressing my emotions when it gets too strong. But the only saving grace is that at the very least all this feelings have been made known to her and she’s regulating the doubts
October 15, 2025 at 4:54 PM
My only issue is, to love without knowing if I’ll ever feel love from her fully. It’s already killing me, suppressing my emotions when it gets too strong. But the only saving grace is that at the very least all this feelings have been made known to her and she’s regulating the doubts
If our journey do come to an end and there’s no road to continue on our side, only then can I fully tell her that I’m proud and happy for her that she’s finally making a decision that is the best for her and the best for her smile.
October 15, 2025 at 4:49 PM
If our journey do come to an end and there’s no road to continue on our side, only then can I fully tell her that I’m proud and happy for her that she’s finally making a decision that is the best for her and the best for her smile.
She’s still very reserved with some of her personal life, but I have time and patience.
I’m gonna give my all, if I can’t get her to meet me in the middle, I wanna at least show her what being loved and cared for really means.
I’m gonna give my all, if I can’t get her to meet me in the middle, I wanna at least show her what being loved and cared for really means.
October 15, 2025 at 4:44 PM
She’s still very reserved with some of her personal life, but I have time and patience.
I’m gonna give my all, if I can’t get her to meet me in the middle, I wanna at least show her what being loved and cared for really means.
I’m gonna give my all, if I can’t get her to meet me in the middle, I wanna at least show her what being loved and cared for really means.
I feel safe with her, she’s reciprocating the time and effort and care that I’m giving to her, and communicates really well with me.
And when she told me that she is compromising her hate for touch for me because I’m doing a good job caring for her, that is magical
And when she told me that she is compromising her hate for touch for me because I’m doing a good job caring for her, that is magical
October 15, 2025 at 4:42 PM
I feel safe with her, she’s reciprocating the time and effort and care that I’m giving to her, and communicates really well with me.
And when she told me that she is compromising her hate for touch for me because I’m doing a good job caring for her, that is magical
And when she told me that she is compromising her hate for touch for me because I’m doing a good job caring for her, that is magical
This feeling i have, we’ve talked about it and i know that we have an expiry date together. We’re not lovers but living our life’s together like we are. I know the end is in sight, but I don’t feel a need to stop
October 15, 2025 at 4:37 PM
This feeling i have, we’ve talked about it and i know that we have an expiry date together. We’re not lovers but living our life’s together like we are. I know the end is in sight, but I don’t feel a need to stop
It’s been a month since my last update, I’m hating myself lesser now. She’s making sure and assuring me so much. She’s working with me and compromising so much for my feelings too. What did I do to deserve someone with a heart like gold
October 15, 2025 at 4:34 PM
It’s been a month since my last update, I’m hating myself lesser now. She’s making sure and assuring me so much. She’s working with me and compromising so much for my feelings too. What did I do to deserve someone with a heart like gold
But everytime I have my doubts, she finds ways to validate my feelings. This, is def my last push. I’ll make sure to give it my all.
August 26, 2025 at 4:24 PM
But everytime I have my doubts, she finds ways to validate my feelings. This, is def my last push. I’ll make sure to give it my all.
This is the hardest I’m trying, just one more time. I’ll put in the effort just one more time
August 26, 2025 at 3:04 PM
This is the hardest I’m trying, just one more time. I’ll put in the effort just one more time
It really feels like at any point of time, she could suddenly decide that I’m not worth her time, and disappear like all the rest did.
August 26, 2025 at 3:03 PM
It really feels like at any point of time, she could suddenly decide that I’m not worth her time, and disappear like all the rest did.
I’m still working towards a world where falling in love with me would make sense. But whatever faith I had in the start, gone. I shouldn’t have told her how I felt.
August 26, 2025 at 3:02 PM
I’m still working towards a world where falling in love with me would make sense. But whatever faith I had in the start, gone. I shouldn’t have told her how I felt.
But, something feels weird still..
it still kinda feels one sided. It still feels like it could go south anytime.. and for a moment i thought i could start expecting something, even if it’s a lil bit. A Change of pace.
it still kinda feels one sided. It still feels like it could go south anytime.. and for a moment i thought i could start expecting something, even if it’s a lil bit. A Change of pace.
August 26, 2025 at 2:59 PM
But, something feels weird still..
it still kinda feels one sided. It still feels like it could go south anytime.. and for a moment i thought i could start expecting something, even if it’s a lil bit. A Change of pace.
it still kinda feels one sided. It still feels like it could go south anytime.. and for a moment i thought i could start expecting something, even if it’s a lil bit. A Change of pace.
I met someone new, this time it’s different.. conversations have been going on for more than a week. It’s been smooth sailing since the start, and everything feels.. really nice
August 26, 2025 at 2:54 PM
I met someone new, this time it’s different.. conversations have been going on for more than a week. It’s been smooth sailing since the start, and everything feels.. really nice
I took some time off today.. I’m gonna really take it slow and work out some stuff.
Yeah
Yeah
July 23, 2025 at 11:00 AM
I took some time off today.. I’m gonna really take it slow and work out some stuff.
Yeah
Yeah
In a world where people are constantly eating each other, I forgot that I no longer have to do that anymore. 5 years of this has really affected the way i treat people
July 21, 2025 at 6:29 PM
In a world where people are constantly eating each other, I forgot that I no longer have to do that anymore. 5 years of this has really affected the way i treat people
2 month later, yesterday. I got a text from her, I jumped for joy, then I stopped. That’s probably gonna be it for another 2 months. Hahaha, I jumped for joy to that, fucking joke
July 8, 2025 at 6:49 PM
2 month later, yesterday. I got a text from her, I jumped for joy, then I stopped. That’s probably gonna be it for another 2 months. Hahaha, I jumped for joy to that, fucking joke
Coz everytime I think of her, I’m forced to remind myself that she rejected my small advances. That face and the way she said it, breaks my soul every time I think about it
July 8, 2025 at 6:47 PM
Coz everytime I think of her, I’m forced to remind myself that she rejected my small advances. That face and the way she said it, breaks my soul every time I think about it
The next video I’m releasing, uses the color green and blue, which signifies the northern lights, which was described in the song. And they just happen to your 2 favourite colors - idk why I’m even bothering
July 8, 2025 at 6:45 PM
The next video I’m releasing, uses the color green and blue, which signifies the northern lights, which was described in the song. And they just happen to your 2 favourite colors - idk why I’m even bothering
Amidst all the crazy schedules I have, I’m still thinking about you. I thought drowning myself with work I’d finally forget, still a joke
July 8, 2025 at 6:42 PM
Amidst all the crazy schedules I have, I’m still thinking about you. I thought drowning myself with work I’d finally forget, still a joke
My fat and ugly ass thought that I had a chance, fucking joke hahaha - in what world would it have made sense
May 14, 2025 at 5:12 PM
My fat and ugly ass thought that I had a chance, fucking joke hahaha - in what world would it have made sense
Ohh, actually those lyrics could be a B-side track to daisies breath, a song about falling in love with hope filled melody, and b-side track could be about the taking the shot and missing it by miles away 😂
March 1, 2025 at 8:31 AM
Ohh, actually those lyrics could be a B-side track to daisies breath, a song about falling in love with hope filled melody, and b-side track could be about the taking the shot and missing it by miles away 😂
With every step around her, I see myself walking on broken glass. But I’ll keep shooting my shots, until she tells me to stop.
March 1, 2025 at 8:27 AM
With every step around her, I see myself walking on broken glass. But I’ll keep shooting my shots, until she tells me to stop.
“You'd find Daisies Breath all on the floor and they'll whisper promises that i'll be yours”
- I think I’m a lyrical genius hahahaha
- I think I’m a lyrical genius hahahaha
January 25, 2025 at 4:34 PM
“You'd find Daisies Breath all on the floor and they'll whisper promises that i'll be yours”
- I think I’m a lyrical genius hahahaha
- I think I’m a lyrical genius hahahaha