She’s aware that the others are right to shun her, and that makes her resentful and self-hating. But no matter how many years have gone by – and how, intellectually, she knows no one’s ever going to like her – that compulsion, that need, forces her to keep trying, keep grabbing. And that

Curse them,
curse them,
curse them to death; only having faith in the path you’re on.

how do i convince you that i'm in pain and suffering?
and why won't you believe me?

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