Instead of doing another Christmas party that no one would attend anyways, work decided to give out Ham and Turkeys to everyone.

I was expecting a 5-10 pound turkey. Something small. I don't have the means, ability or desire to cook the 22lbs bird they gave me. Going to give it to my neighbors.

It's done. The last thing I set out to do with pure intentions has been completed. I have nothing left keeping me here.

Any new goals that I'd set are pointless. I think it is finally time to give up completely. What is left out there for me?

Depression sucks.

Why am I still alive?

5 years ago I tried to kill myself.

I posted this picture as a pathetic attempt for attention just before midnight.

By this time the next day I was stuffed into a mental hospital, of which I was in and out of for the next year.

I wish I had killed myself that day instead.

I did a good deed today.

Why do I have such a negative overall feeling after having done it?

Jealousy is painful.

Even more so when fueled by rumor.

Why is it every time I try to do a good thing it just leaves me feeling like I just messed it up or made it worse?

I have no right to be involved in any way. Please help out in any way you can.

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I don't think I can keep doing this anymore. I have nothing left.

All of my dreams have fallen through. I have no desire to do or get anything.

I need help, but no one will listen.

Today is not going to be a good day for me. Just learned that something I wanted dearly is that much further out of my reach.

I should have gotten it over with when I had the chance. Then I wouldn't have been bothered by it anymore.

Sometimes you have to do something new to learn.

Went to my first ever protest today. As a protester. Not security like I have before.

I think I'm doing okay.

Another year alone again. Why am I not surprised.

Something locked away in my closet is starting to feel all the more enticing.

Been thinking about killing myself again. Got to love sudden major depressive episodes.