vpn (apparently) causing tumblr to ban me is so annoying. i live in russia, half of the internet hates russia, i can't open twitter with vpn off, of course i use it most of the time and it's never been an issue in the past. their anti-bot system is a joke because it gets literally everyone but bots

complained about on tumblr in more detail but it's genuinely so confusing to me when people ignore key themes of a story just to make their ship work or to be able to say that their favorite character did nothing wrong. how does stripping the source material of any depth make it more enjoyable?

aaand mother's back to drinking. nobody is surprised but everyone is disappointed.

may have spent most of the day playing the school game. in my defense i haven't taken a break in a while and my eyes aren't doing too well today. and it's sunday

i'll be honest as frustrating as it is it's also incredibly funny that i got shadowbanned on three blogs on tumblr and the only blog surviving (for now) on my old account is the nsfw one

for some reason every time i hit a low point i always circle back to spencer krug. no money? depressed? angry? time to listen to minotaur forgiving theseus and knossos and the white bull and poseidon and minos and just feel like a creature. "and i hate that i forgive you but i do"

you'd think my mother would be more responsible with money considering that our family consists only of three people (me with my wildly inconsistent income and barely present will to live, my grandma who only has her pension and, well, my mother, with a military (!) pension AND a job) but no!

my jpn learning app keeps giving me sentences like "i like my mother" and "my mother doesn't like alcohol" and i chuckle every time

i'm just gonna use this as an equivalent of a private twitter acc for now because i'm a hater and need to complain about shit