I need to upload more to my social media accounts, sense my upload schedule looks beyond horrid and its been literal weeks sense my last upload, and i need to talk with my customers and stop being afraid of getting mad at, because the longer i wait to talk to them, they get even MORE upset.

i love being a artist, wither its making Porn or making art that i actually take interest in, but i feel like in the end game, i started to question my life choices, which i try to avoid thinking about at all. I want to stop feeling like a bum and get stuff done instead of sitting with my thoughts

To Add on, im starting to feel like im falling off as an artist in general. I've already stated that i wont get popular anytime soon, infact ever. but at the same time i feel like im starting to become the ends of loaf of bread. I'm there, but not everyone cares, and that really not a good mindset.

and also, im still trying my best to finish and take up commissions so i can have at least some income. I can be perfectly stable doing comms, but at the rate im doing them im basically slow as Christmas. Im so behind on them im actually nervous about sending the wips in fear of getting yelled at