Not really surprised to see things progress this way, honestly. We're dealing with over 20 years of trauma and a lot of compartmentalization and disassociation so it's just kinda like... well DUH. At least we're all getting along? I mean yeah I get flak from Aurelia, but it's cause she cares lol.

Had discussed on a discord server about how certain characters we RP'd as years ago were probably actually headmates and uh, yeah. That theory held water, in the funniest way possible. We got to meet Hannah by her... suddenly being at the front, and realizing while walking home from work. Neat!

That was an adventure to have happen. The stream of consciousness never actually broke so we never noticed anything happened other than "Huh, have a lot more energy and am dealing with people a lot better, weird..." until we're WALKING HOME, our friends go oh my god you are hyper, and gears turn.

Just trying to understand what’s actually happening while having a rough week and desperately needing a vacation and the ability to feel safe in our own home… it sucks. This all sucks. Actually struggling to keep the mask up at work. Overstimulated and went nonverbal right at the store of our shift.

Already chewed through multiple pages just on the trauma thing and we’re like, nowhere near done. NGL it kind of caused us to have a moment of “Damn… surprised we didn’t notice/this didn’t happen earlier.” Certainly explains the ruthlessly efficient compartmentalization that isn’t even on purpose.

Something fun on top of this is knowing what did it, but not knowing WHEN. Like yeah the chatter increased over the last month leading to me realizing, but have we always been plural and we just didn't notice? Not even Aurelia knows, she was just upset that it took me so long to listen.

It's just fascinating going from the friend that wants to be supportive but doesn't really understand to... Realizing parts of yourself have kinda drifted apart and suddenly there's another voice that's not you, with a name that's not your own. Of all the directions for life to take, man.

And I'm not gonna lie, I've been so tired the past few days we're both struggling so the chatter is just nonexistent and I kind of... Miss it? It made the quiet moments at work more bearable, and she tends to keep me in check and make sure I'm doing okay. Or bicker with me. Lots of bickering too omg

Now I'm doing freight, just tagging products and getting them set aside to put out, yadda yadda. And Aurelia is just... Sitting off to the side, bickering with me and chattering away because reasons. An hour and a half of that, and it took us going to lunch and sitting down to finally calm down. Guh