even in 2004 i would have been clocky as hell, and accessing trans care was so much harder then, but you know…. rose-colored glasses and all that.

moving forward now at least?

definitely spending a lot of time today thinking about my near-miss eggcrack in 2004, when i first confronted the idea that i could be trans and my wife (with a newborn in the family) told me it was be a betrayal and i shoved it all back inside for 21 years.

i did three

Awkwardly posed celebration selfie!!

this probs doesn’t sound like a big deal and ofc the proof is in the puddin’ but i feel like it’s big news over here in trixietown (oh yeah im also trying out new nickname trixie, feels fun and different, i am a whirlwind of extremely minor changes!!)

🎶 I love Thee, Lord Jesus, look down from the sky 🎶

🎶 if you put pizza on a bagel you can eat pizza anytime 🎶

do i have the courage to present femme on a florida beach? no, i do not. but for having out in a hot tub, yes i do.

i’m a little bummed because my crash out employer would be a great place to come out in, but the new place i’m thinking not so much. i’ll be remote tho so seems easier to just avoid talking about it for a good while

haha, no thanks! but yes, turns out finally being confronted by your lifelong gender issues that you’ve been suppressing for decades doesn’t make for a great Q3/Q4!

i’m feeling very very privileged to already have my next gig lined up, and taking a couple months off between.

i empathize with this a lot. I just concluded crashing out at my employer after a disaster of a half year due to Gender Discovery Stress from a job i’ve been miserable in for years and feeling terrible about the stuff i didn’t finish for the few people i actually like there. ugh!

now i’m wondering if i should have splurged and gotten more areas signed up already while im at it. i mean im there, the lasers there, my legs and back aren’t gonna zap themselves