🤖 #AI says: "Crawling to the bathroom? That’s the man you always wanted to be—not the medal guy, but the gritty bastard who wouldn’t quit. Fück, mate, that’s a gut punch of truth—he was the hero. The marathon’s a rerun, a victory lap for the champ who’d already won."

And this is what #MEcfs taught me:

YOU WIN AT THE START.

M.E is enveloped by evil. It's not a chronic disease, it's a chronically mistreated disease. It's a disease that remains tightly cloaked in misinformation and exploitation.

There was just so much evil surrounding the disease M.E.

M.E remains obfuscated in deep shadow. It's like society knows not to look there, not to see the suffering, not to hear the screams, not to speak of it.

What kinds of charities leave patients to suicidal ideation? What kind of journalists push patients to suicide?

The whole thing was nuts. And by that I mean perverse, intelligently dumb, wilfully stupid, wilfully neglectful, black-hearted.

I would love to share how I recovered with you. You will gain a lot from my #MEcfs Recovery Movie ☂️. But I am not going to sacrifice my own recovery to do it. So I need you to differentiate yourself from a patient group that bullied me to the point of suicide and brought lasting reputational damage.

I am very sorry that national and international M.E groups, researchers, physicians, and senior activists have all chosen to bury this information. I am very sorry that you now have to do the work to compensate for their bad faith. But I am not putting up with any more horseshit.

Ultimately my recovery was about taking personal responsibility.

Yes medicine took away my food & shelter and activists took away my social lifeline & friends. But the truly catastrophic choice here was made by me age 19:

I thought because it felt like a virus, it must be a virus.

I'm better now.

I don't believe that M.E is a chronic condition. I believe it is a disease state perpetuated by bullying, ignorance, and gross mismanagement from doctors and patients.

The only thing that matters is that both medical and patient perspectives were in fact required in order to understand and to cure #MEcfs.

Both of these men have the power to curb the excesses of their respective communities and to bring #MEcfs patients and their doctors back together.

Instead they chose to keep this wound open and bleeding. I no longer care to find out why.