I just get the feeling this isn't being applied to companies that fairly. I don't know how they're deciding who's ok and who's not but it doesn't feel like it's equally weighted.

I also don't think I've heard of Twitch being used for negative things beyond the scam bots that join streams every so often, and that affects everyone, not just under 16s... are you telling me there's a secret ring of predators on twitch? I mean, ok then, but from what I've heard discord is worse.

I just can't help but look at all the issues with it. I feel like I've spent so much time on it that thats all I see now.

The whole point of us being able to learn and grow is to... well... learn and grow in whatever form that takes

The waste of time is working 9-5 jobs for the rest of your life, not pushing yourself to learn something new or experience something new. Games can do both, just like books, movies and many many other hobbies can do.

I have about 4 different videos on the go at once and I'm enjoying working on each of them. :)

I appreciate that it's hard to get away from that and honestly, there's a part of me thinks that it's not a bad thing that you care so much about that.

But just know, you've got a great community, you're a great guy and no matter what stuff you find yourself going through, none of that will change.

I'll never be content if I don't at least try and leave this place in a better place than I arrived in it. It doesn't have to be a big thing, but that's what gets me up in the morning.

And honestly, being this way pushes me to think about so much. The way the world works, whether I agree with certain opinions, what makes one thought right and another wrong.

Whatever the case, I know that I don't want to leave this world having done nothing with my life.

Maybe that's something I need to change.

Either way, its never going to be easy. But I live by the motto, if a task was easy, everyone would do it.

It's a hard thing for me to wrap my head around. The biggest challenge for me is understanding that the people who know the old me are still ok with the new me.
Maybe its because in my head I view them as two different people and I don't want any connection between the two.

Thats why I like having simpler one and done content like that and I want to come up with more ideas for that sort of thing to flesh out the time between uploads.

I'm definitely trying to find side content I can do that doesn't involve the huge amount of editing achievement hunting involves, both for my own sanity but also for having a somewhat consistent upload schedule (even if that is like a video every 2-4 weeks)