The last thing I did in Kyoto i went to Mt. Inari to check out the Tori gates. On my God my body was ready to meet God as I got to the top, but I got there.

Depression got the best of me today. Seeing people post photos of their family and friends enjoying Thanksgiving today hit me hard. The reason for this 6 week trip to Japan is cause I feel like I would be overly depressed to a bad point @ home

I excommunicated myself from family since my dad pass.

Day 2 in Kyoto and my back feels better don't know how but the capsule hotel fucked with my back. I feel better now after sleeping in a regular bed. Now to transfer hotels again and then figure out the gameplan cause its raining today.

I wish I brought my pocket Japanese book with me. (Left them in another backpack I'm struggling out here lol wish I spend more practicing. Bringing out the Google translate as often as I can.

On a shinkashen off to Osaka. Time to break away from the comfortability and explore say hi to peeps at a bar let my social anxiety not stop me from going into a bar and vibe with peeps.

(I might seem like I don't have it at times, but I have fucking horrible social anxiety)

This solo trip is so needed from wanting to end it all at the beginning of the year. From all the stress to now being washed away like taking a dip in a onsen. to be able to do this and still support family cloud of self hatred lessing.

Second day in japan visited the stairs from the end of your name. Next to Suga Shrine.