I LOVE HIM

Woahhh! The colors?? The smoothness?? I have no words. This is an amazing piece

I am a month late because I live under a rock and check my phone once a month apparently but if this is still open (no worries if not!) my tav Kyris cannot help but boink pretty elf men 😳

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My head feels heavy and hollowed out at the same time, I wish I could sleep forever

I hope this goes away quickly. I'm very worried bc the last time I felt this hollow and numb was when I was in a place I thought I would never escape

It gets so bad that I don't feel human. Like all the connections I make are superficial or that I push people away with how quickly I get attached. My heart aches. I just want to feel like I matter to people, that I'm worth being around without having to "prove" it

But today I felt so incredibly empty. So alone. Like I am not worth anyone's time. Like nobody enjoys my company, and that people are only my friends out of pity and will leave once I stop being useful/interesting. It's a soul crushing pattern I've seen in my life since I was a child.

If you knew me from 2018 and prior you will know how fucking ugly as sin he used to be (I couldn't draw & kept giving him a weird ass pasty skin tone that was the color of week old macaroni)