>> { -but i cant. i feel like i am not bad enough at all but i am still drowning }

>> { you can find some but they're VERY convoluted. i haven't been active on ed or sh tumblr must the past year tho so i dont remember any of them anymore }

>> { -protect myself. i assume literally everyone does the exact same. i know they hate me. there is no way they can see me for who i am and not hate me. }

>> { -i just cant. i am almost completely incapable of falling in love. it has happened like maybe 2 times in my almost 23 years of living. i just want to love people the way they love me. i want to love E they way fae love me. i think i love J the way he loves me? i cant tell. i just cant tell. }

>> { better than i have for the past 2 months! doing things that needed to be done, being able to not just hide in my bedroom, and just sooooo much more motivation to do the things i love :3 }

>> { not that they ever say anything tho. they'd probably see me on the verge of kms and still say nothing }