ik i should care less about the number of selfies i sometimes post of myself in a day on my own personal blog but i do care. i shouldn't though. bc have u seen me.

basically i've been privately referring to myself as a dyke wrt my gender for the past month or so and it's felt comfortable and right. which i mean. yeah i'll still be referred to/refer to myself as a woman in an overall social sense. but at least internally i know i'm a dyke. <3

and it's like. i don't use nb for myself, but i've come to terms with the fact that calling myself a woman just sits so off-kilter in me. i do still call myself that in general social situations but being referred to as a woman feels like it's being directed to someone else in the room. idk.

not marked as spam anymore..... i am free

i know eventually things will feel normal and easy again but right now i feel like i'm trudging thru mud in the deep end.

i am unfortunately a sweaty person and the feeling of long wet hair under my arms constantly sux :( and idk if i need to like. condition my leg hair or smth but it feels like tickly static when my legs brush against anything lmfao