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Cheers to getting rid of bad stuff. 🥰
January 7, 2026 at 4:58 PM
Maybe I should transfer here so it’s more calm and peaceful
January 3, 2026 at 5:48 PM
Damn starting the year with a literal bang. Fuck this shit. Are we on the edge of WW3??
Donald Trump announces the United States carried out a “large scale strike” against Venezuela and captured Venezuelan President Nicolas Maduro and his wife.
January 3, 2026 at 5:46 PM
Somehow, I made it. Happy New Year! :)
January 1, 2026 at 11:05 AM
I just wish to not be around. And die. So it’s all over.
December 8, 2025 at 2:36 PM
I’m not a strong person. I easily give up. I know that I will be gone sooner rather than later. It just sucks to know that I was never loved. That I never experienced true love, and be genuinely loved in return. It sucks to have experienced deceit and manipulation instead.
December 8, 2025 at 2:33 PM
I’m so tired, of being one memory away from breaking down. One journal entry away from spiraling into depression. One bad day away from killing myself and ending this misery. I’m so tired of having lost hope. Of being that person who was deceived, and cheated on.
December 8, 2025 at 2:31 PM
It feels pathetic to be in that situation where I was gaslighted. It’s painful to read Tweets, Journals, Messages. I don’t know if I will ever be okay. If I will ever survive the grief. How I wish I can say I don’t care. Or I can move forward with spite. But that’s not the type of person I am at all
December 8, 2025 at 2:30 PM
Grief isn’t linear. This is one year ago. I’m happy that today, I didn’t miss that person. I’m happy that the trash took itself out. The wound is still bleeding, as he cut it too deep. He may be celebrating, knowing that I’m still struggling while his life is back to normal, like nothing happened.
I miss you. There is no one to talk to. No one to do things with. I miss you so much. This is what I can only do. Long for you. I don’t know for how long. It is unfortunate that this is what I can only do.
December 8, 2025 at 2:27 PM
The night is really dark.
November 28, 2025 at 1:14 AM
While he is doing okay, I’m here. Stuck. Mentally crippled. There is nowhere to go. I’m so tired. I just want to die.
November 28, 2025 at 1:07 AM
I’m just fooling myself into thinking that I’m getting better, when I’m not. I want to cry, mourn, but how? I just want to not be around.
November 28, 2025 at 1:05 AM
It’s not getting better.
November 28, 2025 at 1:05 AM
Did I bring this to myself? Did he bring me to want to kill myself? I don’t know. I just want to be gone.
November 28, 2025 at 1:04 AM
I want to kms. I’m too tired.
November 28, 2025 at 1:03 AM
Can I just sleep forever and not wake up?
November 3, 2025 at 6:09 AM
Pakamatay na lang kaya ako? Haha. Can I get closer to that urge to do it? Because I can’t continue
November 3, 2025 at 6:06 AM
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November 1, 2025 at 11:01 PM
How do I even begin to get back on track? I’m still here. I am lost and I don’t know what to do. Can’t help myself up. Sobrang hina ko ba? Why can’t I have the strength to go on? It’s so pathetic.
November 3, 2025 at 6:04 AM
Hmm cinephile. 😌
In search of someone who’s going to watch beautiful films together and discuss them in depth right after over coffee, or during the ride home.

Oh God. What beautiful stuff to watch. I have been missing on these, but at least not anymore. 🥺🥲
November 2, 2025 at 5:58 PM
Let’s go and sleeep
November 2, 2025 at 5:56 PM
I’m happy to say that I am not getting sleep because of the film after shocks, and LSS, and not something else. For a change. 🥲
November 2, 2025 at 5:55 PM
In search of someone who’s going to watch beautiful films together and discuss them in depth right after over coffee, or during the ride home.

Oh God. What beautiful stuff to watch. I have been missing on these, but at least not anymore. 🥺🥲
November 2, 2025 at 5:54 PM
Let’s continue. It’s another blank sheet.
November 2, 2025 at 5:26 PM
When are you going to keep things private here, @bsky.app @support.bsky.team? I wanted to really transfer here but I can’t make my profile private.
September 7, 2025 at 7:39 PM