What if feelings are mutual? Does that justify wrong relationships? Even then, would the risk of harm not outweigh both nature and societal values?

Surely suffering in silence cannot be the only way...but I am yet to find an alternative that won't cause more harm.

What happens when one has the wrong feelings for the wrong relationships? Are they only wrong because societal values happened to say so? Are natural instincts amoral? Is it worth the risk of even acknowledging them? Is it possible to stop these feelings?

Labelling and categorizing is essential to conceptualising anything into functional, existing things. Society has helpfully built notions on certain types of relationships, and defined their bounds...but this has also stigmatised anything that does not fit the values and morals of a given society.

Is the sureity of ideology possible without turning a blind eye to the million times it doesn't work? Or is ideology really always a convinient illusion, to make up rules and ease the mind in the face of unsolvable dilemmas?

Or maybe we are what we believe in, whatever that is in the moment

Or that's just the narrative we impose on ourselves to suit our present interests

Or maybe, deep down, we are nothing, and all these changes are superficial efforts to define ourselves and find ourselves and make something meaningful out of our identity

So why do I never feel this way about the good times?