I last upgraded like 5-6 years ago so it's getting a bit outdated...does anyone know if it's better to buy a prebuilt now? or is waiting worth it? or will waiting make everything worse? what should I do?

yes i know this....but who is to blame then? everyone who makes my life difficult? whats the solution to it? I cant control people. I cant make them accommodate me or accept me or treat me the way I want. if it's not my fault, I cant fix it. accepting poor treatment doesnt feel right either. sighs.

it's unfair and uncalled for and i'm so tired if investing my time and energy into people like this! go get a therapist and dont use me just to decide you need an enemy in order to live and mark me as your enemy because i'm the most available. youre becoming the person who abused you to me now! 💀

it's like they cant live their lives without having am enemy. if escaping the abusive person who caused them all their problems doesn't solve all their problems, they need someone to blame for them. someone to blame for still having anxiety and and stuff. so they blame me and push me away violently!

why are people so allergic to being specific? i'm hyper specific and people get upset about that too! so confusing. you make more work for yourself by not being specific! if you dont eamt questioned, leave no room for questions!

not sure why people get so annoyed and impatient about specifying things. why be vague and then get mad at people for asking questions? unless it was because someone after me was being impatient so they were already annoyed by them thats why I got the unprofessional reply? I dunno 😵‍💫

directly and just say 3d prints are banned to make room for real effort. so I ask again for clarification if mine is considered "no effort" since they wouldn't specify and just kept saying "3d prints" and not which kind. I needed to know. and the reply i got sounded very annoyed???

am example is cons banning printed goods because it's low effort. I spend HOURS sanding and painting my 3d printed figures. I post an example of my work and ask if that's allowed and they only mean the prints people sell in bulk that they dont touch with their hands. they dojt respond to me

people act like it's my fault for not knowing things they think is "obvious" or "common sense" uts my fault i'm not chronically online or have friends to learn things from. if you want me to learn, or dont know if it's on purpose, ask me if I know what it really means then inform me. easy, right?

or my experience is like one friend group one of them kept reassuring me they all like me and want me there whole others ignored me, but found out they wanted me gone after being gaslit for so long! EVERYTHING IS SO CONFUSING I CANT EVEN TRUST MYSELF. i'm told i'm paranoid yet i'm always right! 🥲

I wish I could just ask people what they want but that's why i'm confused. they ignore me and make me guess and read their minds. so I guess wrong. if i try to make them tell me what they want and dont drop it, they get mad at me for trying to "control/manipulate/etc" them. the fuck.

my friend with abandonment issues got mad at me "demanding all her attention all the time" apparently for reaching out like 4 times in a year. another friend that kept to themself a year later blocked me because I "stopped caring and won't talk to them" after they said theyre too busy to talk now
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i've had all these scenarios happen multiple times. I ALWAYS choose the wrong one! I try to go based on what I know about them. for example: they have abandonment issues? I keep reaching out every few months. they generally keep to themselves? I give space. i'm always wrong somehow????