the last like 2-ish minutes of the last csmp video he made ^_^ youtu.be/rhMlr6jsFZs?...

he always spoke with that condescending voice but holy shit he sounds like hes about to rip open a new one at any moment whenever hes speaking to a group of people

i gotta rewatch content smp from the beginning good lord

drifts back to this absolute tragedy of a character, how he *couldve* had it all, way back when rat had attempted to murder everyone on a blimp, he *couldve* been the hero, he practically WAS a hero, but he threw it all away for power that wont ever fill the void in his heart

theres no going back for him. he'll continue to dig his grave all the way to bedrock and he wont realize he cant get out until its too late

im sure this analysis has been made before, im not really too deep in the csmp fandom, especially since im super into forsaken rn, but god my mind always+

do it all over again, just to feel *something*. he wont try peace either, its too boring for him, its too foreign, too *scary*, the idea of having a peaceful life without having people plotting behind his back. even if it was something he wanted thats a concept he lost the second he killed lux,+

no matter who he gets rid of he will always be empty, no matter how many he rules over it wont ever be enough. its not actually about power anymore, its about the rush he gets in the moment, the excitements from planning a kill or revenge, and when its all over he feels nothing and is forced to+

i genuinely jumped when i saw her actual fucking jumpscare