I was too! I wanted to unsee the film right after.

Probably just frustration. When you want to have a conversation about how to move forward but someone wants to keep bringing up the past it does get exhausting.

Idk if I’d call it manipulative but it feels like black just wants a straight “we can be cool” or “we can’t be cool” type of answer whereas blue wants to talk through the process. just a disconnect in how they work through things, black wanna work alone vs blue wanna work together.

Go see every specialist you've ever thought about seeing, if covered, and make sure you have any prescriptions needed. Even if you get your meds from a cheaper alternative, go get checked out and get your house in order.