Here’s a snap of part of the process: popping the ribbon in paint before putting it on the paper.

I was motivated today after reading some notes from an art class I did. The notes that stuck with me were,

“Make happy marks”
“Let go of control”
“Use anything you can find”

Sad I won’t see them today but happy I don’t have to clean hahaha

I had people planned to come over this afternoon and late last night realised I had so much to tidy before they came over!

I had planned to use my morning juggling the baby and cleaning the house. They cancelled just before I started, so now I have my morning back!!

Thank you!

So sweet!!

This feels so comforting to look at.

I hate this too. I managed to find a great shop near me that sells lovely full coverage women’s swimwear. It’s targeted to ‘older ladies’ but the patterns are fab and they actually fit like clothes should.

I’ve been working with A3 size all week and none of my paintings have felt ‘right’. This one feels ‘right’.

As always, NO medical advice please.

I got some great advice from a psychologist when I started this journey to work out what’s going on and was experiencing horrible panic attacks:

I need to trust my medical team.

My anxiety leads me down the doom-googling path. It is so bad for me. I need a team I can trust to have the info I need.

I need to start meal tracking to determine if what I’m experiencing is allergies or not.

I just found this app called Eatrack: Food Diary which I’m going to use to log my meals. I like that you specify what allergens are in the meal so it can do its data thing.

I had to change my appointment from Saturday to today, which was good really cause it meant 2 less days of stressing.

The doctor was really good. I need a doctor who doesn’t make me feel more anxious, and this doctor was very calm and informative.

Blood tests are the next step.

Solid advice!

I am struggling with focusing on doing what I want and not letting intrusive thoughts come in about what other people want. Something I’m working on!