And it hurts a lot when people who have someone in their corner, like a partner or best friend, tell me I should learn to be with happy by myself. As though I don't spend the majority of my days in comfortable solitude already.

Stop giving me a blanket when I said I wanted water. 😭

I love to think that he felt so awkward and embarrassed at the end is cuz Spite was probably there being like "NOW. TELL HER. WHAT YOU SAID ABOUT HER TI-" and Lucanis has no choice but to nope outta there asap

...JJK lmao

Oftentimes just the "would if I actually could 🥺" feels the same as actually doing being able to do the thing 🫂♥️♥️

bbuny is so comftyyyy 🥺♥️ Thank you!

Would love to catch up soon! ;n; Being up since 4am is catching up to me down sadly but I have time most evenings. 🥺♥️♥️

I don't even want to talk or vent about it, really. I just want whatever the equivalent of "I'll come over to feed you and we'll watch a movie you like and I'll give you every hug you need and won't act weird if you cry" is able to be.

And I don't have anywhere or anyone to go to when I need a break. I don't mean that no one cares or would be there if I asked, but asking feels like chasing, and chasing feels like I'm manipulating or guilt tripping because that's what friends have told me I do.

But I wish just me was enough.

(None of this is intentional or personal towards me and I know this, but knowing that doesn't make my body react differently so I still have to sit with that feeling regardless.)

MY SON!!! 😭♥️♥️♥️