when i have time i will… do an aesthetic board… hard to find cosmic void gifs / aesthetic because welp huge nothing so i’ll stick to black holes i think. mostly math visualisations, structured fractals etc.

smiling void + pulsar star. one that intakes the never ending stream of energy from another. all explained in equations. there’s beauty in numbers and kanten can make everything simple and uncomplicated, even love.

please god if you exist please give me the strength to comprehend anatomy so o can draw actual people cuddling

i find it quite endearing how their palettes overlap + the contrast… they’re both dealing with trauma but chose different defence mechanisms. i really need to do a relationship meme when i have time ! pulsar bf x black hole bf, one is so full of feelings while the other has alexithymia

copium. i’m trying not to get attached to things and they can easily be taken away and appropriated. i learned to keep
to myself so i can reduce amount of losses. i need to do vent art someday… i truly am sinking in the sea of endless failures.

i prefer not to base my identity on anything anymore. it really hurts when i fail so i’m trying not to expect anything of myself. i still get swayed by everything dusty pink but does it matter ? as long as i survive. nothing matters in the end, an ordinary person.

the way i dress is pretty simple ? minimal jewellery, one colour + about 70% black surface. only one perfume, no scented body mists or gels. it’s exactly what you expect and i don’t hide the fact that i don’t belong.

i decided to… use them for outside presentation as well ? since all the issues and my inability to conform i decided not to strive towards certain aesthetic anymore. i will fail, that’s inevitable. but i can convey this portrayal of myself in outside features and it gives me solace.

sOOP !! it looks delish i hope you had all the comfort feels < 33 also your journaling is immaculate ! the perfect autumn vibes…

i bought hair oil and mask, i’ll try to take better care of my hair, as much as depression permits. i realised how many things i took for granted.

sigh i should go in the direction of dressing more neutrally because that’s what my anatomy is made for. it’s just really painful and i’m not ready for it yet.