Me: I can't possibly be autistic

Also me: guess I'll just have to die of dehydration then

Thanks 😭

My husband made me tea in a different mug and I had to force myself to drink it

Why am I like this

Ahem

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My neurodivergent ass literally crying because I don't know what I'm going to drink my Too Much Tea out of blue

Oh for sure! And like I was just thinking about this the last few days ago because the heat at the kung fu school broke and we had to use noisy space heaters and I couldn't hear a _goddamn thing_ without my hearing aids and it was embarrassing

And I was just like, man I'm dumb. Ofc I'm disabled

I struggle with even identifying as disabled even though I know how stupid and ableist I'm being toward myself

Like I self selected out of disability stuff earlier this year even tho I'm always fucking complaining how I can't hear anyone at kung fu because I can't wear my hearing aids

The Pope is also on record as thinking trans people are 'inventing genders' so I don't fucking care what he thinks

I think a lot about a post I saw about how indigenous people in North America have been living this for the last three hundred years or so.

Like. A LOT

It really does stretch ones comprehension

It feels like being in a cosmic horror story as you slowly realize the horrible scope of far right depravity and cruelty. Every time you think it can't possibly go any further, the horror travels more of itself in a way that erodes your sanity

I mean, I'm having to switch all my goddamn software because it's so enshittified now! I just want a word processor with spell check that WORKS!

The struggle is real

Also, every time I feel self-conscious about writing about sex with sentient alien octopuses, I remind myself that people have been fantasizing about sex with octopuses for hundreds, if not thousands of years

So, uh. Yeah. If any of that sounds appealing, stay tuned for Last Resort, as I'll be posting chapters for paid subscribers in December, and in February for everyone else.

On the other hand, I'm pretty sure that if I needed to write it, there's more than one person out there who needs to read it. And that given the Horrors, it's not weird to long for a magical place where people can fuck sentient alien octopuses (and each other) about doing magical transition

Because some people I don't have any choice whether they're in my life or not