WOOP WOOP MMFWCL 🪓🪓🪓

so much for the tolerant left

i haven't done a venting post in a while so sorry if this is your first time here, i'm fine, i'll be okay. i'm just tired of things getting worse while i hold on for things to get better. it feels like my whole life is just spent waiting for the good part and it's gonna end before i get there.

i went 4 months without leaving my house/my grandparents' house earlier in the year and just did another 2 months after evo. it's hard to make yourself do anything to improve your situation when you're just deflated all the time. extrovert btw lol

i've been trying to figure out how to have fun alone but nothing is particularly enjoyable. movies, shows, music, games for the most part. uma musume is the only show i've watched in the last 2 years! i've seen maybe like 5 movies. i can't even bring myself to hop in the friend voice chat most days.

some days i stress eat garbage all day and some days i can't get more than a few bites down because my stomach feels like it's clenched like a fist and my whole body is tense for hours on end. i don't really leave the house so my only enrichment is spending all my money on weed and food deliveries.