Ashend Blaze
@ashendblaze.bsky.social
He/him. 🏳️🌈 Single. Mostly a lurker but am always open to chatting
I really love rings and bracelets. I wonder if I'd like toe rings...
December 12, 2025 at 12:28 AM
I really love rings and bracelets. I wonder if I'd like toe rings...
Seeing stuff like this is what makes me so hesitant/afraid to try making a barq account. Or even trying to reach out to anyone. Because I'm chopped and fat and the fact people agree with this means I'd never even have a chance
December 6, 2025 at 4:53 AM
Seeing stuff like this is what makes me so hesitant/afraid to try making a barq account. Or even trying to reach out to anyone. Because I'm chopped and fat and the fact people agree with this means I'd never even have a chance
Materials ordered for a project I'm nervous to try but also excited if I can do. I've done one already but let's see if I can do a bit more complicated one
December 4, 2025 at 6:58 AM
Materials ordered for a project I'm nervous to try but also excited if I can do. I've done one already but let's see if I can do a bit more complicated one
Got a new computer and it looks so empty. My last one was filled with tubes and other stuff and this one is just so much empty space. I know I'm not supposed to decorate the inside due to airflow but...
December 1, 2025 at 3:38 AM
Got a new computer and it looks so empty. My last one was filled with tubes and other stuff and this one is just so much empty space. I know I'm not supposed to decorate the inside due to airflow but...
With temps down to the teens I guess I have to break out the heater for my bedroom
December 1, 2025 at 3:35 AM
With temps down to the teens I guess I have to break out the heater for my bedroom
Drank caffeine at like 5 today and I can't fall asleep... I hate that it's a 50/50 chance of putting me to sleep instantly or making it so I can't sleep that night
November 23, 2025 at 7:07 AM
Drank caffeine at like 5 today and I can't fall asleep... I hate that it's a 50/50 chance of putting me to sleep instantly or making it so I can't sleep that night
When I was younger I thought Kill Bill and Charlie's Angles were the same movie
November 19, 2025 at 8:09 PM
When I was younger I thought Kill Bill and Charlie's Angles were the same movie
I don't know why I let myself believe I had a chance
November 8, 2025 at 7:00 AM
I don't know why I let myself believe I had a chance
When every day already feels horrifically long why can't I at least sleep to pass the time
October 12, 2025 at 6:54 AM
When every day already feels horrifically long why can't I at least sleep to pass the time
Why can't it just be over yet
October 12, 2025 at 6:45 AM
Why can't it just be over yet
Watching the lightning and listening to the rain is soothing
October 12, 2025 at 3:13 AM
Watching the lightning and listening to the rain is soothing
Just one more week
October 11, 2025 at 3:09 AM
Just one more week
Looking at my Switch after 2 hours of power outage and just realizing I really don't have any games to play that don't need the Internet that I haven't already beat. I have some fun games but none that I feel like starting over and none that I just want to run around in post game right now either
October 10, 2025 at 12:51 AM
Looking at my Switch after 2 hours of power outage and just realizing I really don't have any games to play that don't need the Internet that I haven't already beat. I have some fun games but none that I feel like starting over and none that I just want to run around in post game right now either
Mission: don't cry in the airport is a failure
October 7, 2025 at 11:36 PM
Mission: don't cry in the airport is a failure
Tried to be early for my flight to be safe with the shutdown going on. Apparently Tuesday evening is a very slow time to fly because there was literally 4 people in front of me at the TSA check. So yay now I get to sit for 2.5 hours waiting for my flight
October 7, 2025 at 11:01 PM
Tried to be early for my flight to be safe with the shutdown going on. Apparently Tuesday evening is a very slow time to fly because there was literally 4 people in front of me at the TSA check. So yay now I get to sit for 2.5 hours waiting for my flight
My heart's broken. It wasn't ever fixed but having it smashed again was so much harder than I thought it could be
October 7, 2025 at 7:11 PM
My heart's broken. It wasn't ever fixed but having it smashed again was so much harder than I thought it could be
Crying in the hotel lobby... I should've just left
October 7, 2025 at 3:57 PM
Crying in the hotel lobby... I should've just left
And because I'm so stupid and a coward I'm giving up my last day, my last chance to spend time with them because I know I'd just spend it crying in front of them
October 7, 2025 at 5:19 AM
And because I'm so stupid and a coward I'm giving up my last day, my last chance to spend time with them because I know I'd just spend it crying in front of them
Hearing the buzzes from the road and thinking it's a text... God I'm so pathetic
October 7, 2025 at 5:15 AM
Hearing the buzzes from the road and thinking it's a text... God I'm so pathetic
One last hurrah was everything I hoped it would be and everything I feared it would be at the same time.
October 7, 2025 at 4:20 AM
One last hurrah was everything I hoped it would be and everything I feared it would be at the same time.
Why am I so bad at being alive?
October 4, 2025 at 5:12 AM
Why am I so bad at being alive?
Leaving here the first time was the hardest/worst decision I've ever made. I don't know how I'm gonna do it again in 5 days
October 3, 2025 at 12:24 AM
Leaving here the first time was the hardest/worst decision I've ever made. I don't know how I'm gonna do it again in 5 days
I'm feeling very inadequate and worthless
October 1, 2025 at 3:00 AM
I'm feeling very inadequate and worthless
Something so defeating in seeing your own blood.
September 30, 2025 at 3:29 AM
Something so defeating in seeing your own blood.