im dont with twitter, im done in general, my life has been nothing but a stupid lie.. nothign but torture.. i try to see the bright side, maybe im stuck here but i could do something positive with it, and ive tried but... it doesnt work, not for me. so maybe, just maybe, ill end it... worth a try yk

maybe some people are just unlikeable to everyone, but im tired of trying so fucking hard just to get nothing in return, i do try, alot, despite not knowing how. it might not be good to feel bad for myself but wtf else am i gonna do? becuase of this morning i cant even look at my gf anymore

i dont matter, not in the way other people do to other people, i could dissapear and nto many would notice. i thought i was friends with people but.... somehow i fucked it all up.

idc what my gf says, i did, then again, wtf does she know? prob for the best tbh.... no way i could keep it up forever

then again, i already am, atp i feel like i lost everything there is to loose, can i even call myself friends with anyone? anyone at all? or was it all just a lie, just hopeful thinking?

it doesnt matter if i have 6, 600 or 600k followers, whats the point if dont have genuine friends?

i can barely breathe, and i just need someone, just anyone, to help me, becuase i feel like im going insane, and each person i talk to, i feel like it gets worse, and it doesnt help ive been unintentionally ignoring people

i keep have a feeling of something bad happening, i keep feeling like i need to say goodbye, which is crazy, its delusional. but what if i actually break, becuase im so close. no matter what i do, i cant shake this feeling, i dont wanna do something i will regret.

what if i dissapoint her, or any of them, did i ever even help in the first place? did i ever even matter to them at all? is this truly all in my head. i dont know. but im scared. i just want to know that everything i thought i had with everyone wasnt a lie

its always be positive this or positivity that, but its so draining, im tired of it, im tired of trying to believe and hang onto any thread of hope, but i also dont wanna die, it scares me, so much, i dont want to die, i just want to be able to live, is that so much to ask for?

ill talk to you tmr, i promise, ok

and i wont do anything, i just need some time

i just... i hate leaving her to be bored and shit and so im missing out on stuff with her, ON ONE OF THE FEW DAYS SHE DOESNT HAVE SCHOOL

i mean, what if she starts to hate me, what if she has feelings for someone else and forgets about me, i dont want to think about this but i cant help it. i love her so much and all i want to do is do stuff with her and make her happy