didn’t expect 2025 to be the year my anxiety disorder would make a comeback but here we are

kind of glad award season is over though so i no longer have to turn up at work with zero sleep every other monday 😴

so my wicked hyperfixation is still going strong, i think this might stick

today I cried so hard during the ozdust gelphie dance scene, it just hit different this time I can’t explain

there is nothing another wicked rewatch can’t fix rn

I let a parasocial relationship dictate like 8 years of my life and today I saw them again and I don’t know, something changed in me, I cried and I just felt like it maybe has to end? But what do I do now? This is my entire personality? But that is also the problem??

Sharing because I am trying to hold myself accountable and it’s hard to do that alone

You can also read a brief summary of my research on split attraction on my Substack. Here's the link: cantonwiner.substack.com/p/splitting-...

I wish I was strong enough to accept things I can’t change

i miss oldschool blogging

I’ll see ‘Sorry for updating late’ in the A/N and it’s only been like 2 days since last chapter? 😭 this is what is really stopping me from publishing fanfic chapter by chapter again, like even when I was still in school and writing every free period I updated weekly at most THE PRESSURE

trying to grow out my hair a little bit, but the inbetween phase is horrible 🤡

the supercorp to agathario pipeline

i want to thank all the ao3 writers from the bottom of my heart you’re doing the work so we can all keep going 🙏