folded, flipped, stabbed and eaten

fire pic.

soft and cute

Maybe I should commit Regicide.

But there's pieces of me that just want everyone to bow down to me, and I fucking hate those little bits. Every time I hear their voices I just scream in my head until they're drowned out by loud music and whatever porn I have in front of me. But maybe I should channel that into something productive

I think my fear of people got internalized in two ways. Some kind of gross need for dominance, and some kind of weird coping mechanism that gets me aroused. When I say a need for dominance I don't mean the cool BDSM shit, that's awesome and I fw that separately. I love the trust.

But thinking about it as I write this, I think I have changed pretty well. I used to be pretty meek and non-confrontational, except when it came to my brother or my friends. Nowadays I'll tell anyone off for fucking with me, on a personal level. So maybe I have changed.

I don't want to feel regrets but I do. But ultimately I chose a direction, and my stubborn ass is sticking to it. Maybe it'll drive me just insane enough to figure out how to change lmaooo
Can't go left if it feels like you trapped going straight and narrow

Well, I say one, that's pretty dismissive of me. There's been several, my best friend being one. It and I are two strings permanently tied together in some way. Not romantically but not platonically either.