apathy, self sabotage and self isolation with no trigger whatsoever

Another type of day where suicide does seem like the answer

If I wasn't so autistic I probably would've killed myself earlier because of the person I am but presently I cannot grasp my patheticness accurately

I got like 10 years left in me

It's so over for me

I go through life thinking I should kill myself until I get on my computer then I forget everything in my life for a few hours

0 days since my last panic attack

My memory is so bad that I feel like the me 1 year from now won't know who the me from now is

I am once again feeling weird and out of place

ah ah ah ah, i have myself to blame.

type of day again where a brain aneurysm sounds real good

Still debating how long I should wait, until after my mom dies, to kill myself

i really felt like an adult with free will when I was in my room, off of LSD, all alone and realized I still had to do the laundry.
so there i was tripping balls while in a brightly lit room folding clothes at 1 am

having a void to shout into is nice