how to focused on world full of distractions could be started with
1. Watching long duration videos
2. Videos that forced you to think
3. Listen to podcast with long duration
4. Read physical book

Enjoy the boredom not quickly grabbing your phone

What

even getting into relationship in the first place if you can't treat someone better.

Idk what's wrong with Haryo but he never complained not even once and keep putting up with my attitude. Then I realised that I might doing it too much with everything.

I was wrong.

A relationship that based on uncertainty will just hurt him. Why am I staying? To feed my ego? To search for someone that will tolerate my egoist side? They said if there's an egoist person in a relationship they bound to fight a lot.

I'm tired of myself, why would you

And it ended up hurt them. Like when Eve said, “I'm tired admitting my fault when I don't know where I'm wrong" "Do you even care of my own emotions" When he compared the way he treated me when I was in bad mood and how I treated him when he was the one in bad mood.

I do love him but maybe

I always try to be nice to others because I have this urge to maintain my kind and caring personality but when I have someone who tied and I believe won't leave me I would do nothing to maintain that, when usually I'm prioritising other I become selfish when around people who truly cares for me.