Oh Rainer - maybe I can build 1 of the 2 experiments - I will do the calculations today. My universe is just so utterly empty without you at my side. It hurts me to get back to it - it makes me cry. I will try to get my act together for our friend's sake.

Ok - decision made. I delete my dating account and try to find a way to realize my experiment instead.

Physics experiments, starry skys, cantor-russel paradoxes ... oh and I kiss my chickens on the beak and my sheep on their gobs.

Not everyone's girl.

People I got in contact with (even including in Germany) thanks to Rainer writing emails on my behalf should still know me. Maybe I should contact them again. After all they asked to zoom with ME (not with Rainer). Rainer believed I could and would do "it".

I did - when Rainer found me. He was drumming up people to let me use LIGO ! "I" pulled the trigger on it against my own sake because another null result was not what Rainer wanted. I ran up a marathon for his sake and worked it out because I thought he'd have only 1 shot at it ... too late.

I think I only joined a dating page to find someone like Rainer. Maybe a Rainer+chickens. But you don't find someone like that on dating pages. I need to work on convincing people to support me with facility and instruments to build my experiment. Then I can find friends that fill my longing.

Because what do I like doing ? I don't enjoy going out too much. I like to build a physics experiment in my shed and work and discuss with likeminded. I like to look at the stars and indulge in philosophy. Who would like to discuss my Cantor-Russel Paradox with me ? I'd go out to discuss that.

Or maybe they all should see a psychiatrist. Because why would you want to date a person you don't even know ? Over a pretty photo or your own idea of them? Rather than falling in love with someone you got to know and to love for that reason ? Which one of the many strangers should I date ? NONE !

And then I receive more messages like "Lovely picture can we please meet?" or "We don't have much in common but I have a good heart and we live close." causing me anxiety - responding to no one. And then I tag @cosmicpinot.bsky.social and think I should see a psychiatrist. Date a psychiatrist 🫣?

More guys are texting. Do I have any hobbies? Many. Incl researching, writing theory, designing experiments, analyzing data, chasing up the entire world ... but I lost Rainer. I don't want to date anyone - I just want Rainer back. @cosmicpinot.bsky.social this is your fault. I need to blame someone

I think I understand why I won't find my soulmate on a dating app - because my soulmate wouldn't go on a dating app.

I always thought it would be someone you suddenly meet in life.

Das ist erschreckend - aber was kann einen heute noch erschrecken.

She is horrible. She gave a speech in Australia why only Jews and Christians can rescue the West. A slap into the face of all our Muslim citizens. Seeding hatred and division.

Ich hab noch nicht gewusst dass Asylanten in Deutschland verschieden behandelt werden jenachdem was die Nationalitaet ist 😶.

Rent out some rooms ?

And yes, Australia desperately needs effective housing - communities would be a big plus to be inclusive also for people who cannot look after a yard whilst others love to do it. We have single disability pensioners in a multi-BDR house whilst a family sits on the road.

It is curious to me that you say this. I see both at the same time. Pretty much I see what there is.

Try it with a waterfall. Look at the waterfall for 15 seconds and then at the landscape atop and it will move.

Because whilst the lines are straight - their ends do not follow a straight line.

My son has done that too - he took better photos than myself.

Because you don't post much. I just made this account to stalk you but

when I sent you a signal, you run away from it, so it reaches you later no matter how I run after you. But since your clock is slowed down - how do you know ? Because you see it in an earlier state.

Look out for it Brian.