Applesgosh
@applesgosh.bsky.social
brief life update,
still alive, doing much better than the last time i posted. no drinking, rarely getting high. in a relationship, got super lucky. unemployed but at least i'm happy. looking forward to cons and seeing friends. still playing dst, enjoying osrs too. can't wait for maplestory classic
still alive, doing much better than the last time i posted. no drinking, rarely getting high. in a relationship, got super lucky. unemployed but at least i'm happy. looking forward to cons and seeing friends. still playing dst, enjoying osrs too. can't wait for maplestory classic
February 6, 2026 at 10:25 PM
brief life update,
still alive, doing much better than the last time i posted. no drinking, rarely getting high. in a relationship, got super lucky. unemployed but at least i'm happy. looking forward to cons and seeing friends. still playing dst, enjoying osrs too. can't wait for maplestory classic
still alive, doing much better than the last time i posted. no drinking, rarely getting high. in a relationship, got super lucky. unemployed but at least i'm happy. looking forward to cons and seeing friends. still playing dst, enjoying osrs too. can't wait for maplestory classic
banking on youtube staying up for a long time. it's really all i have to show for in my life when i'm dead. i wonder how long youtube has before everything gets deleted somehow.
May 16, 2025 at 6:27 AM
banking on youtube staying up for a long time. it's really all i have to show for in my life when i'm dead. i wonder how long youtube has before everything gets deleted somehow.
fruit flies ALL up in my business
May 13, 2025 at 4:26 AM
fruit flies ALL up in my business
used chatgpt for the first time, asking if I should still take my useless Lexapro while drinking tonight. led me to ask a couple more questions and got me to cry lol. this AI bot or whatever, seemed to understand exactly how I'm feeling and literally felt like i was dm'ing a caring human. dude what
May 13, 2025 at 4:03 AM
used chatgpt for the first time, asking if I should still take my useless Lexapro while drinking tonight. led me to ask a couple more questions and got me to cry lol. this AI bot or whatever, seemed to understand exactly how I'm feeling and literally felt like i was dm'ing a caring human. dude what
so high, broke the laws of physics -SB
May 9, 2025 at 4:26 AM
so high, broke the laws of physics -SB
squeezing thoughts into 300 characters is sucks. OK DAMN goodnight
May 8, 2025 at 4:52 AM
squeezing thoughts into 300 characters is sucks. OK DAMN goodnight
spending too much time staring at this website thinking of bullshit to type. stop. ok. fuck you. ok i'll go to sleep. omg reminds me i had a weird dream last night. and been dreaming since getting off the dope. hopefully lucid dreams will return to me. been a year since. used to be at least monthly.
May 8, 2025 at 4:51 AM
spending too much time staring at this website thinking of bullshit to type. stop. ok. fuck you. ok i'll go to sleep. omg reminds me i had a weird dream last night. and been dreaming since getting off the dope. hopefully lucid dreams will return to me. been a year since. used to be at least monthly.
strong desire to create
May 8, 2025 at 4:48 AM
strong desire to create
being sober is so boring it's painful at times. that's just life though. drugs make me feel amazing at first and then like complete shit later. almost evens out, but i'm aware that being sober is just better for me in almost every scenario. drugs are too good to be true. like fast food. hamburger.
May 8, 2025 at 4:45 AM
being sober is so boring it's painful at times. that's just life though. drugs make me feel amazing at first and then like complete shit later. almost evens out, but i'm aware that being sober is just better for me in almost every scenario. drugs are too good to be true. like fast food. hamburger.
who's to blame? who gives a fuck about blame. doesn't matter when this is all in my head. lived so much recently in my head or online. feels desolate, hopeless. brain only spits out error codes nowadays. emotions stacking and bottling up. it's all gonna come out sooner or later apparently. shitfuck
May 8, 2025 at 2:09 AM
who's to blame? who gives a fuck about blame. doesn't matter when this is all in my head. lived so much recently in my head or online. feels desolate, hopeless. brain only spits out error codes nowadays. emotions stacking and bottling up. it's all gonna come out sooner or later apparently. shitfuck
lonely but i push everyone away
May 8, 2025 at 2:03 AM
lonely but i push everyone away
this is like my own personal journal, except it's on the web and it's public for anyone to see. feels kinda good to vent out shit here but i wouldn't recommend anyone read this junk.
May 5, 2025 at 6:52 PM
this is like my own personal journal, except it's on the web and it's public for anyone to see. feels kinda good to vent out shit here but i wouldn't recommend anyone read this junk.
no weed for 4 days now. this past year I went harder than ever on it, which is prolly why I'm experiencing cannabinoid hyperemesis syndrome, which rly sucks and has me on the toilet every few hours. feeling less crazy though which is mostly what i wanted. still a bit tempting to get high but nah
May 5, 2025 at 6:46 PM
no weed for 4 days now. this past year I went harder than ever on it, which is prolly why I'm experiencing cannabinoid hyperemesis syndrome, which rly sucks and has me on the toilet every few hours. feeling less crazy though which is mostly what i wanted. still a bit tempting to get high but nah
FOUR BLACK WALLS, TIE THE NOOSE, NO RECALL, NO WITHDRAWAL, RATHER SHOOT UP TILL I FALL
May 2, 2025 at 10:10 AM
FOUR BLACK WALLS, TIE THE NOOSE, NO RECALL, NO WITHDRAWAL, RATHER SHOOT UP TILL I FALL
DREAMS OF BIG STADIUMS, FALLING, COMMUNITY, MARQUITA'S MANSION. NEUTRAL
May 2, 2025 at 7:50 AM
DREAMS OF BIG STADIUMS, FALLING, COMMUNITY, MARQUITA'S MANSION. NEUTRAL
NOSTALGIA IS AN INFECTIOUS DEVIOUS LITTLE FUCKER
May 2, 2025 at 6:35 AM
NOSTALGIA IS AN INFECTIOUS DEVIOUS LITTLE FUCKER
i believe i was dealt a below-than-average set of cards. unfair is earth and the creatures living upon it. randomness. random. rng. luck. unfair, unforgiving, brutal mother nature being a good mother. sink or float.
May 2, 2025 at 5:31 AM
i believe i was dealt a below-than-average set of cards. unfair is earth and the creatures living upon it. randomness. random. rng. luck. unfair, unforgiving, brutal mother nature being a good mother. sink or float.
WEED I LOVE WEED BUT IT KEEPS ME FROM DOING PRODUCTIVE THINGS. TOOK A FAT LAST HIT EARLIER @ 4:20 AM. DRINKING TWISTED TEA TO DEAL WITH WITHDRAWALS. TRUST THE PROCESS BITCH
May 2, 2025 at 3:55 AM
WEED I LOVE WEED BUT IT KEEPS ME FROM DOING PRODUCTIVE THINGS. TOOK A FAT LAST HIT EARLIER @ 4:20 AM. DRINKING TWISTED TEA TO DEAL WITH WITHDRAWALS. TRUST THE PROCESS BITCH
DISILLUSION ST CONSPIRACIES (LACK OF TECHNICAL KNOWLEDGE)
May 1, 2025 at 2:29 AM
DISILLUSION ST CONSPIRACIES (LACK OF TECHNICAL KNOWLEDGE)
THIS STUPID WEB PAGE PROFILE IS NOT ME. I USED TO BE FULL OF LIFE, HAPPY. I USED TO SOCIALIZE. I NEVER HAD AN HONEST DIRECTION THOUGH SO EVENTUALLY IT ALL CAUGHT UP WITH ME AND LED ME TO THE END OF THE ROAD FUCKINNOWHERELAND AND I HATE IT HERE. I EITHER FLOAT OR I SINK.
FLOAT OR SINK YOU BITCH !!!!
FLOAT OR SINK YOU BITCH !!!!
April 30, 2025 at 1:38 PM
THIS STUPID WEB PAGE PROFILE IS NOT ME. I USED TO BE FULL OF LIFE, HAPPY. I USED TO SOCIALIZE. I NEVER HAD AN HONEST DIRECTION THOUGH SO EVENTUALLY IT ALL CAUGHT UP WITH ME AND LED ME TO THE END OF THE ROAD FUCKINNOWHERELAND AND I HATE IT HERE. I EITHER FLOAT OR I SINK.
FLOAT OR SINK YOU BITCH !!!!
FLOAT OR SINK YOU BITCH !!!!